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September 30, 2010

Yup..And he's back!

Yay! Update!! At last I managed to post an entry after so long. Not that long actually. I mean quite long. Okay. Where should I start? Let's start with the moment he came back from Italy. I was.....erm...so damn happy!!! And zillion of thankful to Allah as he's safe and sound. Alhamdulillah. But I think he did lose some weight. It's okay, I told him to eat more.

I went to meet him last Tuesday. He fetched me at Jabatan Pelajaran Selangor after I completed my orientation course (which I will blog about it soon). Owh..I just miss him so much!! My tiredness was fading away the moment I looked at his smile. We headed straight to his house. And again, I had that scrumptious honey cornflakes prepared by my lovely Nabeela. Sedap!

While waiting for abah to fetch mama, he gave me something that make me went ooohhh!!It's gorgeous! Guess what?? Yup! Souvenirs from Italy for me!!!! Wanna see???


A pretty flowery purple shawl..so lovely!

And an elegance handbag clutch. I heart this one so much!!

Thank you so much sayang. I didn't expect that he'll buy me such souvenirs. I really love it!!

I had a chat with mama before we were off to KLCC to meet Jain. Owh..siap sempat nonton sinetron bersama mama dan adik sambil makan kuih raya. Hehe. We were off to KLCC around 6.30p.m. and jalan-jalan cari pasal there. Surveying things for that day. He asked me whether I want a pair of Jimmy Choo for that day..I was like..really?????haha. But of course, I don't want. Buat apa nak membazirkan.......beli yang biasa-biasa dah cukup dah sayang. It's you that I want..not that material-thingy.

And on our way back to send me home, he said something that makes me feel like I want to hug him and won't let him go. Dear, you are my everything too. Thanks for the souvenirs.

Good night everyone.

Hugs and kisses,

September 25, 2010

Just be myself...

Someone had really waken me up yesterday. Alhamdulillah, syukur. To my beloved BFF's..I'm sorry. I wasn't born to be selfish la guys. I just don't know how even if I tried so many times. It only makes me feel guilty.

Being selfish and fight for my right are two different things. And I chose to fight.

Semalam baru lah terfikir sesuatu secara positive. And guess what? After I had quite a long chat with that someone, I feel so calm and a bit relief. Hari ni rasa macam nothing's happened. Dan rasa macam perasaan sayang ni semakin bertambah-tambah pulak..Hihi..Jangan marah aaaaaaa...

And yes, that someone said something yang buat saya rasa...suke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes!

Today is the day. Tak sabar tunggu dia. Rindu tau.

Hugs and kisses,

September 23, 2010


The second entry. Actually I was about to close my eyes but then..Aha! Somebody is spying on me. Like I don't know. You removed me as your friends..I don't mind. You blocked me from your blog..I don't mind..by the way, I'm not interested in your life at all. But then you keep on reading my blog??Why? Interested in my love's story, honey? Thought that you also have one. Opppsss!

Wow!! I feel like I'm really a hot stuff now. I think I should wear a pair of Jimmy Choo's next time. I'm a hot stuff! Besties, let's celebrate! Thanks for being my die-hard fan, young lady. Muahahahahahahaha!!!

Pathetic..damn pathetic... You are pathetic. Seriously serious.

I'm now trying to bring out the hell inside me. Am teaching myself to be selfish and mean. It looks like the angel needs a vacation. Goodbye angel and welcome devil. Thanks BFF's and my future sis-in-law for waking me up.

Wait a sec..it's the devil wears Prada or the devil wears Jimmy Choo? Or maybe just Charles and Keith. Whatever.

Good Night Lovelies..and of course..good night my dearly fan.

Hugs and kisses

2 days to go..

Hello readers. I would love to blog about something that made me mad yesterday. But as much as I wanted to blog about it, teardrops won't stop pouring from my eyes. So..it's better for me to stay calm..Plus, I'm afraid I'll be too overreacted. Tapi perempuan, aku memang marah kat kau. This time around I'll be selfish. I deserve to be happy.

2 more days to go. I just can't wait. Syukur, Alhamdulillah as he's doing fine. But sayang, please come back. I really really need to talk to you.

Take care dear.

Love you.

Hugs and kisses,


Dear my lovely readers,
Shoutbox will be banned for a moment due to some malicious malware attack.
It's just a step to prevent that harm.

Hugs and kisses,

3 days to go

Rindu sangat.
Cepatlah balik sayang.
Ada perempuan gila yang psycho kacau I.
Eh, silap..kacau kita.
I need you.
Please come back.
3 hari lagi.
Sabar ye sayang.

Hugs and kisses,

September 21, 2010

4 more days to go..

I did once ask him, if he had to choose a song for me, what would it be? And he gave me this song. I'll be from Edwin McCain.

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
I've been dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, Remembered the things that you said..
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

It's raining again outside. Heavily. Every time I think about him, missing him like only God knows what it's like, rain will surely pour. It just make me think about him more.

Anyway, just received his sms. Alhamdulillah, he's doing fine. He told me that he just ate the lollipops that I gave to him. Which mean he is thinking of me.*blushing* And I'm thinking of you too, my dear. Every day, every hour,every minute, every second and every breath that I take. Ya Allah, please protect him. Semoga dipermudahkan urusan. Amin. 4 more days to go.

Hugs and kisses,

September 20, 2010

5 more to go

Owh..It's just another day of waiting. By the way, I received his very first message from Milan last night..right before the moment my eyes closed. He knew that I'm worried about him. And he knew that I couldn't fall into sleep without knowing how's he doing. Alhamdulillah. Everything's fine.

Some of you might think that he's lucky to have me as I was being worried and care so much about his safety. But for me, nope. The truth is, I feel so lucky to have him as my everything and I'm grateful and thankful to Allah that we have each other. Again, Alhamdulillah.

Arguments, fights, hard-feelings, misunderstandings. They are all what I called "mix ingredients" that will spice up our relationship. Just to make the taste balance. In fact, we are both humans. And humans do have feelings. Without feelings, I would feel no love. Nor would I feel happiness, sadness or even jealousy and insecurity. Human will always deal with feelings, by the way.

Why I ♥ him so much? That's one an unanswerable question for me. I ♥ him with no specific reasons. From the moment I met him, I could feel that he's the one. And baby, until now, you make my heart do a little flutter and you make me feel really really happy, wanted and indeed, loved.

I think it's my time to sleep. By the way, rain is pouring heavily outside my window pane. Again, it's raining. I miss him even more.

P/S: 5 more days to go. Still waiting with patience.

Hugs and kisses,

September 19, 2010

Counting the days - 6 days to go

If there's no sun to rise,

No wind to blow,

And the sea leaves the shore,

I promise to you with my dying breath,

I'll love you forever more.


Hugs and kisses,


It's raining outside.
It makes me think about him even more.
I'm suffocated.
I miss him.
Really, really, really miss him.
This feeling is indescribable.
6 more days to go.
And the clock is ticking.
I hope it won't stop.

P/S: I miss you, sayang..

*Picture courtesy from pxlshots *

Hugs and kisses,

It's not the same...

My day won't be the same without him. He is miles away from me.

Dear, I'm going to miss the comforting words of love and encouragement you give me every single morning before I start my day. And the words I LOVE YOU really mean so much to me.

I know that my whole week won't be the same. It's different. Totally different. I'm colourless, empty. I have no mood to attend any of our friends' wedding and open houses. Without you I'm lifeless. I'm weak. I'm pathetic. Mr. Time..could you please fly faster than usual?

Owh..nobody understands how much I miss you. Have fun sayang. I'm going to miss you.

May Allah protects you. Hope that you'll have a safe journey. Amin.

Hugs and kisses,

September 18, 2010

Photoshoot- Part 2

I'm full..I ate like there's no tomorrow. Owh..maybe I'm too worried thinking about something. Hmm..As you all know, he'll be off tomorrow morning. I mean early in the morning. I wish I could send him to the airport but he refused. He's worried about my safety driving alone. It's okay dear. I'll be waiting for you.

Well...work routine has started. Workloads are waiting for me..Urgh...I could feel that raya mood is slowly fading away. But hey, I'm super happy today.. why?? Shhhh...let it be a secret.

Anyway, here are some of the photos during my second photo-shoot.

The green, green grass...

The so-called model is already tired!!

I love this photo so much!!!!!!!!!Credits to the photographer!


Sampin yang telah berjahit itu.....

Balik kampung!!!!!!!!!!!

I like this one too=)

Also this one too!

Photographer: My one and only, Zaffan Zaini
Location: A garden nearby the Bukit Jalil Bus station

P/S: More photos at photographer's FB.

Hugs and kisses,

September 17, 2010

Benda ini cool!!

Remember that I keep telling myself that everything is going to be okay? Well...Alhamdulillah. Things are back to normal after that major arguments. If it's meant to be, then InsyaAllah..it's meant to be.

Right now I'm at the TPM cafe, waiting for him to finish his work. I really need to see him. Why? Because he'll be off to somewhere that is miles away from Malaysia for a week. I'll be missing him so much for sure. And I bet he's going to feel the same way too. Tomorrow he'll be going to the Celcom Center to activate his roaming service. He said if he doesn't activate the roaming, he won't be able to send me any messages. A week will be like a year for us. Urghh...But don't worry. I don't mind if he couldn't sms me while he were there. I'd already gave him 7 lollipops. A lollipop for a day when he thinks about me.

Just now I went to Giant after school,like always, groceries shopping. I stumbled into something that can be labelled as cool. It's the travelling toothbrush!!!!!!!!!!!! And I think it's useful for my next year bigger plan!!!

Cool kan?
Dah macam pisau lipat plak aku tengok bende nih...hihi..

Okaylah.. Got to go...

Hugs and kisses,

September 16, 2010

This is not the end..

I have to keep reminding myself that this crisis, this feelings won't last forever. Well, hopefully. Oh, good morning, by the way.

Apparently, I found myself so lonely being in the middle of this situation. I'm really hoping that I could get myself through this as soon as I can. Perhaps before my routine starts tomorrow. InsyaAllah.

By the way, I'm wondering why in this world, some people could neglect some of their friends? I mean in the beginning, they were so closed together but at the end, when something bad occurred, rejection happened. They will remove you from their friend's list. They will block you from anything. Like they are unaccessible. Like they were dead. For me, this action is just showing me that you are childish. Hurm...just stop thinking about this, dear self. I still have so many friends out there. Chill out!!!!!!!!

Need to take shower. I'll be back to the hell of heaven today. Pray for my journey.

p/s: Chop...macam jauh sangat je kan? Haha.

Hugs and kisses,

September 15, 2010

It's the risk that I take...

I told myself to stop doing things that eventually might make me cry. Indeed, I did it again. No matter how many times it will break my heart into pieces, no matter how hard my heart refused to stop crying, I will do anything just to please someone that I really care.

I sat down and took a deep breath, trying to help myself to calm down. Think, think and keep on thinking. Do you think that my life would end when you broke my heart into pieces? Do you think that I couldn't make it through? No dear..of course not. I'll make it through. I just need some times..that's all..Besides, this isn't the first time...huh?

So it's your birthday yesterday. But not exactly a happy day for me. I can't believed for all this while I poured my heart out to you, I try my best to give you the best on your birthday but this is what I get back. I'm not trying to bring back the past..but there are certain things from the past that's hard for me to let go. I don't know why. It's indescribable.

I talked to my beloved Dilla just now. Hey, I really need someone to talk to. Who else if not her?Thanks for the courage you gave me..and of course, some good advices. I realized that sometimes I've neglected few of your advices..but believe me, you make me feel alive. Thank you friend.

So many times...Don't know what's wrong with me..My tired mind speaks and keep on telling me that it's the risk that I take by loving someone too much. I just need someone that could cheer me up.

Hugs and kisses,

September 14, 2010

After a long pause...

Phew!! At last I managed to update my blog after a long silence. Sorry, sorry and so sorry. I'm facing a technical problem now...or in other words, I need to feed my broady-bandy. Then it will behave normally. I promise to get over it soon. Real soon.

Oh gosh!! So many things inside my mind right now. I just don't know where to start. It has been 2 weeks since I left this little room of mine. Hurmm...where to start?? Oh yes, first of all, a very Happy Hari Raya I wish to all of my Muslim readers. Maaf Zahir & Batin.

Hurm...what's next? Oh, remember my post about that sampin story? I did meet him at the bus station. And guess what? He brought the wrong sampin!!! Aiyak!!!! Then what we did was.....photo-shooting!!!!! We took a few photos around the garden nearby the bus station. Thanks baby, I love all the photos. It was superb!!!

Anyway, how was your hari raya?? Mine was superb!! Like the previous years. This year we managed to make a surprise to mom and dad with the new sofa. Thanks to my bro..he called himself "Eric Ling", brother of the famous Eric Leong.. Haha! Then on the third raya, I went to his grandma's house. Yay!!! Meet his grandma, mom and some of his relatives. Hmm...I really miss my grandma. For me, Raya is not complete without a grandma. I would love to hug his grandma but..wouldn't it be too obvious if I did that???? What will his mom think about me? So gediks! But seriously, I wish I had a grandma....Okay enough. Let's move to the best part of the story. I managed to kidnap his sisters!!!Yes!! Berjaya juga akhirnya membawa adik-adik ke rumah!! After beraya, we headed to Melaka, jalan-jalan cari pasal there. Penat tapi happy..lagi-lagi part naik beca. Haha.

Oh, semasa sedang driving, the unexpected someone called me. Sorry sebab tak jawab your call, as I was driving at that time. It's not that I don't want to pick any call from you, ya. And sorry for not replying your sms. No credit lor.. Haha.

Okay then. Got to go now. Will continue as soon as I settle my prob with broady-bandy.

p/s: Owh..look at the date!!! It's his birthday!! Happy birthday sayang..Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki...Love ya!

September 04, 2010

A Sampin Story

Location : Bukit Jalil Bus Station

Plan changed. I changed my ticket from 12 noon to 3 p.m. because of a sampin (urgh..not sure with the spelling). What a drama! Actually I've planned to drop by at Subang and catch up with him, take that sampin and then headed straight to Bukit Jalil. But he didn't give me any confirmation. So here I'm, in the middle of the station, feeling so stuffy, waiting for him. Plus, had to change my ticket. Hmm....it's okay dear. Mom and dad can wait for me.

You know what? I think he is so sweet. Why? Because he doesn't want other people to sew that sampin for him except me. He told me that the sampin was a gift from his grandma. But I know the story behind that sampin. But I won't tell you as I promised to adik to let it be a secret between us. Sayang, thanks for giving me the opportunity to sew that sampin for you. I promise to sew it carefully. And I hope you will be wearing that sampin during "that" day. InsyaAllah.

Oh, I fall in love with him again..and again..and forever again.

Hugs and kisses,

Love your breasts. Keep clean.

Just now, I read about something that is very interesting for me to share with you. I know some of you might already seen this thing..or maybe already knew it..but it's new for me. After looking at the picture, I started to make some light researches about this disease. Apparently, there is such disease. And it's frigging scary! I couldn't stop myself from thinking and that makes me eager to know about it. After reading some medical articles, I think now all the questions that mingling inside my mind were answered.

Okay..let see the photo. I'm warning you that this is terribly disgusting.


I tell you..this photo is horrible. This is called breast larvae Infestation. It happened to a lady, who didn't wash her new undergarments that she bought. These larvae were feeding off the fats, tissues and even the milk canals of her breast.

Take a close look at the picture. For me, I think that photo is somehow computer generated. Because, if it's true, the breast should be rotten, don't you think? I think the photographer had combining two or more images in a graphic manipulating program. Maybe a photo of a breast was combined with a photo of a lotus seed pod. Whatever it is, this photo is truly revolting.

Therefore, to make things clear, I decided to search the info regarding this disease in the Internet. Thanks to the article from BMC Surgery. This kind of disease is called Furuncular myiasis of the breast that caused by the larvae of Tumbu fly. This happened due to the infestation of the larvae from Tumbu fly. Somehow, this kind of case is rare. You can read here for more info. But hey, we have to prevent ourselves from such disease, right? Okay, this is the real photo of a woman, infected with this disease. Okay, I think I want to vomit.

Furuncular breast lesion with multiple sinuses containing Tumbu fly larvae.

The extracted Tumbu fly larvae. Ewww~

It's scary, isn't it? So ladies, our garments especially the undergarments are made in different countries from all over the world. They were placed in boxes and go through many hands and exchanges before we purchase them for ourselves. So, we don't know what parasites are on the surface of our clothing when we buy them. Therefore, moral of the story is please make it a habit from this moment and forward to wash all your just-purchased undergarments or any garments before wearing them, remember?

Sharing is caring. Good night everyone.

Hugs and kisses,

September 03, 2010

I'll be back!!!

It's been almost 9 p.m. but I still don't get any news from him. Ya Allah, I'm worried about his safety. I tried to call him so many times, unfortunately unsuccessful. He didn't reply my sms too. Hmm.....I am worried. I think it's best for me to post an entry in order to eliminate these worries. Just pray for his safety. That's why I don't like him to go out for outstations.

Times fly so fast. It's already 24 Ramadan now. Feels like only yesterday we started fasting, huh? So, how's your preparation for the feast? Me? My preparation is so-so.. I mean moderately. I'm spending my money prudently. Reason? I still haven't got my first paycheck la.. Aduh..How many times should I tell you?

I still remember vividly the time when I was little. Hari Raya was the most-awaited feast every year. I couldn't wait to wear new clothes, new shoes, everything that's new! And the most I couldn't forget was...DUIT RAYA!!!!

However, such feelings has faded away as I grew up. Maybe now I'm getting to understand the true meaning of Hari Raya. It's not about new clothes, new shoes or duit raya. It's about forgiveness and happiness to meet our relatives that we rarely see. And not to forget, the delicious and scrumptious food and the various type of kuih raya!!!! So much fun, don't you think?

Owh, speaking about raya..I'm going back home tomorrow!!!!! Yeeha!! And yes! I'm finished packing! Yahooo!!!! Melaka.....Here I come!!!!!!!!!!!!

P/?S: Pak cik kat sebelah rumah ni malam-malam pun nak bertukang. Dari semalam lagi...betul-betul kat tepi tingkap bilik saya. Susah betul nak tidur. Bersungguh betul pak cik ni nak raya. Haih~ Cop...Mr. Boify dah sampai rumah ke belum agaknya....Risaunya...

Hugs and kisses,

Merdeka Eve

I went out with few of my friends- Nuar, Farhana, Hannah and Azhim- and of course, with him. First destination was Murni Discovery for the late break-fasting thingy. What I like most about Murni is because of the foods. They are all scrumptious! Thanks Nuar for introducing me to Murni Discovery. Apparently, me and Mr. Boify don't have to suffer having meals at the stuffy place with "Mickey Mouse" is everywhere. Yay!! Dear, next time no more Murni SS2, okay sayang? =p

Let's talk about the food. That night was my first time having that popular Mee Raja. I was jaw-dropped when the food arrived. Tersangat melimpah ruah, okay? Can feed for 3 persons!!! And of course, I couldn't finish my meal...as usual. Hihi. And for drinks, I had my favourite drink, Ribena Special. Blurrppp..Alhamdulillah.I'm full. Next time want to try the Arabiata. It looks nice and delicious. Owh, don't forget to try the Nasi Goreng Meletup. Superb!!!!!!!!!!!

Then we headed to Uptown for "sightseeing". Haha. Ouch..Couldn't write any more longer. I'm so tired to dance my finger now. Now..it's photo time!!!

My. Boify, Nuar, Azhim, Fana and Hannah.

Hannah is so cute in this pic.

Couldn't finish my meal..T_T

Helping the doctor to buy tudung..

I like this pic so much!

Thanks Mr. Boify for the photos. I need to take a nap now...zzzZZzzz~

Hugs and kisses,

September 02, 2010

Weekend Update.

I did tell you guys that I had a fabulous weekend last week with my bff Cik Dilla and Mr. Boify, right? So I think let's just make my entry short.

I went to the night market with Dilla on Thursday and I bought that pink handbag. But hey, I sold it the next day. Yes. And the reason was....syhhh!!! Let it be a secret between me and Dilla. Yezza!

And as been told, I went to Jalan TAR on Friday and having my fabulous sightseeing there. Ooppss! Did I say sightseeing?? Well sort of. Haha. Meet Dilla there. I passed the house key to her cause I had to go to buy my raya ticket. That day was superb tired!!!! I just had some rest after berbuka with Dilla. Then, Mr. Boify invited me to accompany him playing futsal. Even though I was so damn tired but being with him makes my tiredness fade away...weee~

I spent my Saturday with Mr. Boify and my Sunday with Dilla and her beloved En. Azli. babe, thanks to your sayang for that asam pedas.

And Mr. Boify..thanks for spending your precious time with me. Thanks for everything. Miss you already..

Oh.......I just couldn't make this entry longer. I'm so sleepy right now.

By the way, Alhamdulillah..Thank you Allah for that thing. I'm happy. Syukur.

Hugs and kisses,


I had already finished translating the thesis for my colleague. And yes, my brain wrecked. It's been such a long time since I did this job of translating and finishing other people thesis. I don't even want to do this kind of things anymore as I have my commitment now. But I just couldn't help myself to say NO. And yes, I'd finished marking all the question papers too!

I should post an entry regarding my fabulous weekend and many more. But now, it's already late. I need to go to bed as I have to work tomorrow. I bet everyone does, isn't it?

Good night everyone.

Hugs and kisses,