I miss you

This entry is dedicated especially for my beloved BFF, Cik Fardilla Fawzi.

Babe, u fikir rindu u je? Rindu i ni? Lama gila babs kot tak jumpa u...Rindu gell!!!!! Bila lah nak berbuka puasa together-gether ni....

Hugs and kisses,
Cikmai.

I feel terrible!

The sounds of rain pouring outside my window had waken me up. A gloomy Sunday morning. I don't hate rain, but rain will always make my mind refuse to stop thinking about him. Oh dear! I feel totally terrible right now. My mind is clouded with thoughts of Ramadan memories which I spent with my beloved family and with my one and only, him. Please be strong, dear self. I know that you can be stronger than ever. 2 more weeks than you'll be off to home sweet home. Just hang on, dear self. Be strong!!!!

But I just couldn't help myself. I miss them so much.

Dear Abah, even though we keep on arguing with each other even for the small things, you know that you will always be my father. I will never forget your sacrifices. I just want you to know that I'm not trying to become a rebellious daughter. No. Never in my life. It just that, sometimes I need you to listen to my opinion. I'm no longer a small girl. I'm a grown up now. I know how to think and I know what's the best for me. But seriously, now...I miss the moments of arguing with you. And I know, whatever it is, you will always bring up the best in me. I love you dad.

Dear Mak, I miss the moments when we were in the kitchen, having fun cooking together. I miss the moments when we were searching for the best recipes in the internet. I miss the moments of sleeping in your arms. I miss the moment of watching t.v. till midnight..talking about my boyfriend. How you adore him, as much as I do..Mak, I miss everything about you. And I love you so much, with all my heart and soul.

Dear brothers, sisters and in-laws, I miss you guys so much. I miss the moments when we were joking and laughing around together. You guys will always be by my side, whenever I'm in trouble. To be exact, financial trouble...well mostly. Ahaks! You guys are the best brothers and sisters in the world. I hope that we could gather together on this coming Aidilfitri. InsyaAllah.

Dear nieces and nephews, you guys are the cutest little creatures on Earth! I miss you guys so much. Fatihah, Alia, Iman, Farisya, Danish, Dania, Wawa, Saifullah, Saifuddin, Khadijah, Qistina and Sufi......wait for me. I'll be back this coming Aidilfitri. You guys please be prepared for that hugging and kissing time. I miss you..all of you!

Dear Mr. Boyfriend, Ouch! I miss you badly. Miss you, miss you and miss you. Miss everything about you. Please come back!! I need you.

And for my BFF babes, guys....let's hang out!!! I miss you guys so much!!

Wait...I could see something! Wow! I see sunshine outside my window! Rain had stop pouring. I just love sunshine! See you later!

Hugs and kisses,

I miss you..I really do..

I'm now laying on my bed, struggling to close my eyes but I couldn't. I just miss you badly.

I miss you. So much...I miss the moment when we were hugging each other every night. You will always be my shoulder to cry on. You wipe my tears for almost every night. You listen to every single things that came out from my mouth, without even try to criticize it..even if I'm wrong.

I'm sorry because I left you. It's out of my intention. I'm really sorry. I just want you to know that I miss you. I couldn't sleep without you. I'll be back soon and we could be together again like always. Please wait for me. Gosh!!If only you knew how much I miss you..and how hard for me to close my eyes without you in my arms?

I miss you my dear Mr. Brownie..Hope to see you soon.

Hugs and kisses,

Just Checking

Hello!Hello! Saje je Cikmai nak check korang semua. Dah sehari tak update. I'm afraid that you all gonna miss me. Rindu tak? Rindu tak? Cakapla rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.............ngee~

Well, I really don't have time to update anything now. Told you, I was just checking. Caring tak Cikmai?Caring kan?kan?kan?=)


Hugs and kisses,

Wondering

It's already 1.25 a.m. but I couldn't sleep. Hmm.. thought of having a slice of Vienetta's ice-cream.

I wonder what is he doing right now?

Been waiting for him since morning. Hmm.....guys are unpredictable.

Till then.

Hugs and kisses,

Mixed up!

It's been a long time since I posted the gedik-gedik entry. Erk...pernah ke? Gile ape.... Well I can't remember, actually. =P

I think I had screw up my brain right now. The Sudoku puzzles get very tough. I've been beating my brains out with it, but I just can't solve it. What happen?? Aiyooo~ Maybe I need a break. Or maybe I need a new book..My eyes are getting sick by looking at that yellow Sudoku book. Yellow is not one of my favourite colour, by the way. But I owned a couple of yellow Tees. No biggie!

Recently, I've been dreaming of him for almost everynight. Well....it's maybe a sign that he will hand me a proposal...don't you think. Perasan...wink,wink~Don't count my chicken before they've hatched!!!Oh no!! Please...Don't assume "that" thing will happen just because I dreamed of him every night. Probably I've been missing him like crazy~ Help me!!!

Mom is fasting today so I prepared a cream caramel for her. Sweet tak I? weee~ Better off to the kitchen right now. I still have to mixed the kerabu sotong.


Hugs and Kisses,

A Place Called Home

I reached home last two days and still, I'm tired of traveling and unpacking. But somehow, I'm happy as I can lay on my own bed and watching FIFA. Yay!

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I miss them. I miss those memories with Kak Piah, Ida and Rachel. Moments of struggling to win the battle, struggling to get rid from those bitchy women trying to pretend they were nice and struggling to be patience. I cried when we were hugging each other and when those "Goodbye" words were coming out from our mouth. Guys, I'm going to miss you. Hope you too.

And I miss Terengganu. I miss that sandy beaches. I miss my house. I miss everything.

Me, Ida, Kak Piah and Rachel..


Friends forever..

Hugs and Kisses,

Happy Teacher's Day!

Hello Sunshines! Today was not too stressful even though final exam is draining me. I hate exam and I guess most of you are on the same boat with me. I started my day with reading text book. Feel like I can pat on my shoulder now as I spent 4 hours reading text book successfully without any distractions.Yay!!! So now I only have 2 more topics to be covered before my exam tomorrow- Statistics and National Education Philosophy. Must struggle on these topics.

Oh before it's too late..Happy Teacher's Day. This year is my first year celebrating Teacher's Day as a teacher. Well, half-teacher. I'm still waiting for the posting letter and yet, the exam hasn't finished. I would like to take this opportunity to thank all my teachers and lecturers and whoever who had taught and shaped me to become a better person. Thank you, thank you and thank you so much. Oh, not to forget thanks to my students and friends for their wishes. And to all my colleagues, Happy Teacher's Day.

Well this post graduate teacher's course that I attend will soon be over. Which mean I have to be prepared and get ready for the real life as a teacher. Where am I going to be posted, I don't have any idea. Just leave it to God. Me? Struggling to get rid of worries while waiting for the posting letter.

Just look at the bright side. Be optimistic!

Last night my ex called me. He is now a teacher-a successful teacher,teaching at a secondary school in Sabah. If I will be posted there, I will be so grateful. Well at least I have someone there who can take care of me. I don't know why am I so happy when he called me last night. We were wishing each other Happy Teacher's day..and we were talking about exam- thanks for your motivation- and we were recapturing our sweet memories back..and we were like..owh, you still remember this and that??!!
And then he came into my dream last night. It's so weird. err..okay. Finish. Don't want to talk about it. Owh, really??Hurm...well maybe. I don't know.

Okay then. Have to continue on my revision.
I'm happy. Alhamdulillah.

Assalamualaikum.

Hugs and Kisses,

Tentang Rindu

Once upon a time.......nah, I'm not going to post a fairytale story here. Sit back and keep on reading.
I'm so sleepy and was about to close my eyes when suddenly, I couldn't. I kept thinking about him. Yes My "MZMZ".
I still remember when the first time I met him. Finding a boyfriend was not my main agenda when I was transferred to full-boarding school. But as a human I can't help myself to have a crush on him. From the first time I met him until now, he will always be my prince in my heart..*but..who is the king??? the king is..of course, my father*

I miss MZMZ, a lot!

Hugs and kisses,

=,(

Assalamualaikum.
Cikmai sangat berasa tidak selesa sekarang. Menderita akibat sakit gigi. Lepas skin's irritation, gigi pulak. Sangat sakit ye you olz! My left cheek is swollen like there's a golf ball inside my mouth. Sangat susah nak bercakap. Nak makan pun susah. Kepala pun sakit. As a result, saya tidak ke sekolah hari ini. Oh ya, di sini Sunday ialah hari bekerja ye..

Pagi tadi received an sms from my mom saying that sayalah anak yang pertama wish her Happy Mother's Day. Happy!!! Then terdetik di hati saya dan berdoa, harap-harap mak call sebab her daughter sangat sakit sekarang. Within a minute, mak betul-betul called. I was happy and biasalah...I cried right after our conversation. Owh, Cikmai takkan menangis depan parents bila sakit sebab tak nak mereka risau. Anak askar kena kuat semangat, bukan cengeng!I wish mak and abah were here.

Oklah. Nak tidur...lagi???Asyik tidur je...tu je yang mampu Cikmai buat masa sekarang ni. Thought of reading books but my eyes couldn't cooperate with my brains right now. Rabu ni sudah ada appoinment dengan dentist and saya kena cabut 2 batang gigi. Minor operation katanya..Anyway, wish me luck dan sila doakan saya. Harap-harap doa kalian dapat mengurangkan kesakitan yang saya sedang alami.


Hugs and kisses,