Great item!- Part 1

Hola!! Rindu tak dengan Cikmai? Mesti rindu kan?? Kalau tak takkan hari-hari datang blog Cikmai even tau tak de update..ngeeee~ Anyways. ....Today I'm not going to ramble about this and that. Tapi nak let go something yang masih baru, masih belum berjahit. Kain kebaya ni I bought it from Frenny di Indonesia. Mula-mula memang beli untuk buat baju sendiri. But then bila Cikmai tengok dalam wardrobe, dah ada 6 pasang baju kebaya dan ada satu lagi pending belum jahit, and tambah lagi satu baju kebaya nyonya ready made, I bought it last month, sudah ada 8 pasang. Daripada 8 pasang tu, cuma baru pakai 2 pasang.So sebab dah ada baju kebaya warna merah, I think I want to let go this one, memandangkan ianya belum berjahit. Sangat cantik. Sulam dia cantik...siap ada labuci lagi. Gorgeous, okay? Serious, memang sangat cantik! Kain pun tak panas. Memang ikutkan hati sayang nak let go. Tapi sebab kain yang tak berjahit dah semakin banyak, I have to let go.

RM80 only. Termasuk postage ya.

*Picture courtesy from Frenny.
SOLD TO GIA..sorry guys. Siapa cepat dia dapat.

Ada siapa-siapa berminat? Drop me a comment, okay? But remember, only for those yang serious. =)Cepat..Boleh pakai buat raya.

p/s: I do have lagi sepasang kain yang tak jahit untuk di let go. Tapi tak sempat nak ambil gambar...nanti okay?

Hugs and kisses,

Life is unfair.

In life, we never rarely get what we want. That makes life is unfair. I bet it's not only me, who keep on lamenting the fact that life is UNFAIR..other people also. Did you realize that nowadays, the poor are getting poorer, the richer are getting richer, the failure become more failure and the successful became more successful. Life is indeed so damn unfair.

In my own life, all things that I see are like normal mundane things- unglamorous and unfair. Okay....I want to share with you something. Something that I considered as biased and unethical. Something that makes me blew up my top. I really don't like HATE it when an idle jerk got a better result without even had to strive for it. I labeled her as a photocopy machine who always copying other people ideas and works especially mine. But then she got an A- while I only got B+. I could say that almost 70% of your work are MY IDEAS, my masterpiece. But how could...what the hell was that?? If only I could turn back time and make my beloved Mongol sister explains the truth to the lecturer that she's don't deserve to get an A. But it's too late.

She always thought that she has a notable beauty that could make all guys fall for her. So she used that so-called-advantage to get whatever she wished for. Going out with lecturers so that you could get better grades? Going out with guy that came from out of nowhere..asked him to get you make-up, this and that..Owh.. Now I knew where did you get the money from. Did you sell your body too? Ouch!!! Sorry I had to say this..but you're just a bitch. You are not like what you said, like what you proud of. You're a just a coward banshee who keeps on hiding your flaws by being an extrovert person and keep on pretending. Opppsss...It seems like I just let the cat out of the bag!!

Seriously, knowing you will be the worst thing had ever happened in my life, EVER!Thanks to them, 3 of them that who must not be named here, for bringing me into reality that she's not a good person. I admit that you are generous..but being generous doesn't mean you are a good person. I did respect you as a sister before but now, I don't. How should I respect you if anyone with a BRAIN can see what you did were completely wrong? Sometimes I feel sorry for her because I think she's actually doesn't have that BRAIN. Owh..one more thing. Miss so-called-perfect, stop badmouthing about your little sister in front of others. You knew that she's a way better than you. But you just afraid to admit it, don't you?

There's a lot of other things happened to me that makes me think life is so unfair. Awful thing had happened and I couldn't turn back time even if I'm begging for it. But don't worry. I knew just what I can do to change this unfairness in life. It's something that we call it as ATTITUDE. It is about being contented with my life and what I've got, accept all the Qada' and Qadar from my creator, Allah the Almighty. Stop complaining and get on with my life and work. So "Live life to the fullest". Haha. It might sound like cliched, but I should start pondering that adage from now on You know what? There's no point of thinking whether life is unfair or not because life is indeed unfair. Just go on and live my dreams. In fact, I'm sick and tired of being entertained by people like miss so-called-perfect.

Owh,I do have another story about a different version of miss so-called-perfect. Let it be in my another so-called entry. Muahahahahahaha...


Hugs and kisses,

Wondering

It's already 1.25 a.m. but I couldn't sleep. Hmm.. thought of having a slice of Vienetta's ice-cream.

I wonder what is he doing right now?

Been waiting for him since morning. Hmm.....guys are unpredictable.

Till then.

Hugs and kisses,

Mixed up!

It's been a long time since I posted the gedik-gedik entry. Erk...pernah ke? Gile ape.... Well I can't remember, actually. =P

I think I had screw up my brain right now. The Sudoku puzzles get very tough. I've been beating my brains out with it, but I just can't solve it. What happen?? Aiyooo~ Maybe I need a break. Or maybe I need a new book..My eyes are getting sick by looking at that yellow Sudoku book. Yellow is not one of my favourite colour, by the way. But I owned a couple of yellow Tees. No biggie!

Recently, I've been dreaming of him for almost everynight. Well....it's maybe a sign that he will hand me a proposal...don't you think. Perasan...wink,wink~Don't count my chicken before they've hatched!!!Oh no!! Please...Don't assume "that" thing will happen just because I dreamed of him every night. Probably I've been missing him like crazy~ Help me!!!

Mom is fasting today so I prepared a cream caramel for her. Sweet tak I? weee~ Better off to the kitchen right now. I still have to mixed the kerabu sotong.


Hugs and Kisses,

Superstitions

On my way back to Melaka from KL, I watched an Indonesian horror movie. It's "TIREN" or mati kelmaren. It's about a dead girl, who comes back to live when a black cat jumped over her dead body during the funeral. It's quit scary!

Okay, let's get back to business....Superstition. Nowadays, superstitious beliefs are shrugged off by most people in this modern age. People believe in facts and realities rather than superstitious belief as it has nothing to do with daily occurrences in real life situations. Some of us might say that superstitious beliefs are the products of some people's fantasies and imaginations and real world has no place for them.

Picture courtesy from Google picture

Here, I would like to focus on the black cat's superstition. I believed that no other animal on earth has inspired more superstitious than the cat, especially the black cat. Most superstitious view black cat as bad omens. Like what I watched in that movie, a dead body comes alive when a black cat jumped over it's body. I did hear about this superstitious belief before, but how far the truth is, I don't know. I think I have to make research about superstition. If anyone of you knew about this black cat thingy, or ever encountered with this kind of situation, please do share it with me. I would love to hear stories from you.


Hugs and Kisses,

Just perfect!

Hello Lovelies! I wanted to write and tell you all how much I enjoyed my weekend with people that I love - him & his family and my best friend, Cik Dilla. How I wish I could have such weekend for every week!

First I have to thank Cik Dilla for the 5 stars accommodation. Thanks babe for everything. We were gossiping about "this" and "that" until 2.30 in the morning! Majorly about things that have to do with beauty and relationship. Babe, I learned something from you about life. You were right. People don't know things that we were facing so they can say everything without knowing how we feel. And we have to learn to be selfish because life is sometimes cruel and unfair. Thanks babe for everything. About the cleaning-the-toilet thingy, no biggie! I'm just tired of wrecking my brain to solve the very difficult level of Sudoku puzzle. So, by doing such chore, I can let my brain rest for a moment. So..no big deal darling. No worries. Already miss you, babe!

Secondly, many many thanks to him for giving me the happy and smiling hormone. I had such a great 3 days with you. Thanks for that Twilight: Eclipse movie, which I didn't expect that I was actually watching it. That movie was so the jiwang-karat meh! Never knew that vampires and werewolves are romantic. lol!

Secondly, thanks sayang for the birthday present. I love it so much!! I promise that I'll write letters to you using that pen, like what you asked for. Auwww~ very the sweet lor!

Next, thank you, thank you and thank you again sayang for our trip to FLORIA 2010. You knew I adore orchids so much! I feel like we were in the heaven of flowers! But that heaven were crowded of people and that mysterious mak cik! Dear, was the mak cik real? She's so freak and like only me and you could see that mak cik there. She reminds me of one makcik in the movie of Congkak. And one thing that I don't understand until now, why did she hold you hand???? Did you remind her about her dead ex-husband?? Scary, meh!!

Oh yes, before I forgot, many,many, many thank you to mama for letting me used her kitchen. Only God knows how nervous I was at that moment. Dear, you should tell mama that I'm going to bake a cake. But Alhamdulillah, everything went smoothly. Dear, don't forget to upload the photos.

Again, my dear and babe, thank you all so much for a fabulous weekend! I haven't smiled so hard or so much in far too long! I can't wait until we get together again!

My last weekend was just perfect!

Hugs and Kisses,

Daydreaming

Last night I stared at the blank ceiling in my room, pretending like it was a blank white canvas. And there was me, ready to paint my own version of so-called painting to symbolize my dreams, my hopes, my wishes-like always I did before I close my eyes and fall asleep.

One word- Daydreaming. Most people don't consider daydreaming as a part of actual dreams. But seriously, everyday, I daydream about something, like future plans, reminiscences about the past, or non-sense images. I think daydreaming maybe applicable just as nightly dreams. Often, when I think things in my head, I attempt to add a bit of unrealistic and fantasy dreams at the end. I can control them to become like what I want and wish for. I can basically let my creative imaginations run away with my brain to the wonderland. Wee~

So....CONFESSION please. I'm now, happy to confess that...as being a short-time-period jobless...I'm now an official part-time daydreamer. and also a part-time SUDOKU puzzle addict.

Daydreaming~

Sigh~

Hugs and Kisses,

Change

Have you ever woke up in the morning and gave a pause for a moment, thinking what life is all about...what will happen to you today...are you going to have luck or are you going to have a bad day or are you going to be left out? While people was busy doing what was written on their schedule, there was me, still thinking about the ups and downs, pinks and blues, the circles and the squares of life.

This morning I had a moment when I looked and felt something. Did I missed something for all these years? The only problems that I had was there were too many of "ifs" and "whys", mingling around in my ocean of emotions. My face crinkled. Stop making that stress face, you just increased the number of pimples on your face, you silly.

I hate don't like when he wants me to tell him how to make things normal again. I mean that wasn't one of my favourite question that I have to answer. Seriously, I do want to make things to be normal again. For how long our boat has to sail on a rough and wild ocean? We need a get back to where we belong. I love you and I know you love me too.

So I learned something from what had happened to both of us. Express ourselves, our feelings and our desires. Don't hold back and let go. Pause to reflect then move on because time and tide waits for no men. Empty your heart from arrogance because this life is not all about us, there are a whole lot of other things that matter out there. Life is about giving back, about others, about sharing.

As time passed by, I should realized that we'd grown up. And so do our relationship. We have to treat each other like adults. Understand each other feelings. Don't let your past control our relationship. Dear, let's move on and start everything all over again. I will never ever trying to screw up your life honey like what she said. You have to know that sometimes being cynical doesn't mean one is being egoistic and such.

And to whom it may concern,
Thanks for forcing me into a lot of things that I should stop doing. I'm now seeing things brighter and brighter and less mediocre. You make me realized one thing that is for sure..I made a mistake..a huge mistake in choosing you as my so-called best friend. And mistake cannot be corrected by making another mistake.

It seems like all my 'ifs' and 'whys' are flying away. And I have to start a new chapter in my life...And it is CHANGE & MOVE ON..

Oh yes, something happened for me yesterday. And I'm happy for what I've got. Syukur, Alhamdulillah.

Hugs and kisses,

I want a guy......

• who can wrestle with me and let me win...
• who I can talk to about anything...
• who puts my cold hands in his warm hoodie pockets...
• who let me use his sweatshirt for a pillow...
• who says I LOVE YOU and means it...
• who will kiss me in the rain, in the sunshine, and in the snow...
• who calls me unexpectedly...
• who realizes that I say things but don't always mean them...
• who I can go swimming with on hot days...
• who can tell me his problems and let me help...
• who will kiss me and tell I'm beautiful...
• who will always be by my side when I need him...
  
• who simply be mine to hold...

Hugs and Kisses,

My so-called Birthday Boyfriend

It's been a week since my last birthday. Birthdays are wonderful time of year, but not just for the good reasons that make kids love them such as presents, birthday cakes, hoards of attentions and the validation of telling everyone "Hey, I'm a year older now!". However, even though birthdays come once in a year but good birthdays come a few an far between. I always had pretty lousy birthday for almost every years. I have to wreck my brain to remember when was the last time I celebrate my birthday with him?

My 24th birthday was not that lousy as my previous one as I had Farini to accompany me while I was having a slice of cake. Last year I had to eat and enjoy my birthday cake alone. Thanks Farini for everything. I owe you one. Oh yes, before I go too far, I'm now talking about my so-called boyfriend. Sometimes I feel so jealous with my friends who always get surprises from their love ones. Me? Please don't ask.

Not a date, not a surprise, not a present - I only got one present this year, by the way, and it is from ME- not a birthday card, nothing. I remember I called him on my birthday night, and he had no mood to entertain me. I asked him why? And he said he's busy studying with some of his dudes. So I don't mind about it. But last 2 days I found out that he was hanging around with other girl, on the night I called him, or should I say, on my birthday. OMG! He cheated me on my birthday. I really don't mind if he did tell me the truth. Why he had to hide it from me? No wonder he didn't reply my sms and was acting like something was going wrong that night when I called him. Maybe that was "my birthday present".

Why he didn't realize that he won't get any chances to celebrate my birthday next year? And perhaps for years ahead as I will be posted to a place where connection is limited. People won't realize what they have until they lost it.

The clock is ticking and I'm counting every hours, every minutes and every second that I have right now.

Hugs and kisses,