Box of Memories

It's 14 minutes before 11 p.m. now and I'm still searching for info to complete my task. But my brain couldn't collaborate with my eyes and my fingers anymore so I'm thinking to stop for a while so that I could share something with all of you. Oppss!! Before that, sorry because there were no entry for the past few days. I was busy and I just came back from a camping which I hate most. What?? I hate camping. Ask me why? Because camping is just so uncomfortable. I had rashes again on my face, my legs and my hands. Plus, I'd got sunburn on my face too. And the worse part is it takes quite a long time for me to recover. Sigh~
Okay, let's get back to the topic. Recently, so many things, GOOD things happened in my life. Okay...so..I thought to have a box..a huge box which I could keep all those sweet memories between me and him inside it until the day when I tie the knot. I know it's a bit late to do this but better late than never, right? *semacam tiru cerita Stairway to Heaven la pulak kan??*
Last week on Friday I went back just for his convo. I arrived at Subang Airport around 10.30 p.m. *flight delay, as usual* He fetched me and we went straight to RedBox Sunway Pyramid and we had a very great time there, singing until 2.00 a.m. in the morning. That's the first memory that goes inside my box. Anez was waiting for me at her house. *Thanks babe. Sangat menyusahkan you*
The next day, I followed him to Low Yat Plaza. he bought himself a new handphone. I was so damn tired as he was so particular when buying something. We were like tawaf inside the building so many times and I was nearly lost my temper that time. He took so long and I don't have time to shop for his convo. *Geram sangat. Sangat lama okay, sampai saya terlepas nak pergi rumah Azmah. Guys are sometimes selfish jugak. Isn't it?* Then after that he took me to 1Utama and I bought a scarf and a top only. *B la...lama sangat pilih handphone!!* So I consider that won't go inside my box. Huuu~
The next day, he had a photography session with his mates. A pre-convo photo session with professional photographer and a beginner level photographer, me!!! Thanks Mr. Amir for giving me opportunity to use your camera. I just love it so much. erm..the guys really love to pose. I was so damn tired as the photo session started from 10 a.m. and finished at 5.oo p.m. These are some photos that I'd shot.

Dah dah.. tak boleh letak semua. Nanti banyak sangat pulak pic.Huu~ After having a photo session with friends, he had a photo sessions with his family too. we went back and dropped by at saloon as he wanted to cut his hair. And I went to spa to do a treatment. Wee~ Then we went to his house and i was so damn nervous meeting his parents. But luckily, i didn't meet his dad. Yay! Kurang sikit rasa takut sebab before this dah pernah jumpa mama. All his brothers and sisters ada time photo session tu. Hey!!!I'm getting closer with them! They were so nice to me. That will go inside my box!! After taking some pictures, he sent Zariff to bus station and then sent me back home. I was so tired that day, mandi and terus tidur. Then on Monday, saya pagi-pagi lagi sudah bersiap. Mahu ke konvo si dia. Not only him, my friends' convo too. *His friends are my friends too, right?*I followed Anez to her office then he fetched me there. We went to his house sebab saya akan pergi dengan dia, which I thought that kami akan pergi berdua, menaiki kereta MyVi...tapi rupanya pergi bersama semua family dia. Okay.. when I said semua, it means including his dad. Waaaa...sangat la takutnya. Salam his dad and then gerak sama-sama to his convo. Before that we went to Hentian Duta to send Zaffri. I was so quite that time. Takutla. First time jumpa bakal bapa mertua, memangla takut. Huuu~ Tapi..everything went well. So well, actually. I took care of his sisters while his parents were inside the hall. Erm...memang bestla!! Sangat best!! then his dad sent me to the airport. Abah bawak kete sangat laju okay sebab that time dah dekat pukul 7 and my flight was at 8. Thanks abah. His convo memories will go inside my box! Okaylah.. mata sudah sangat tidak boleh bertahan. Need to sleep because I had class tomorrow. Till then.

*B, you look just like your dad.*

Congratulations My Dear

Assalamualaikum. I am now at my BFF's office, waiting for him to fetch me. Today is his big day. Yes, BIG DAY. Hey, I'm going to his convocation!!!!! Isn't it great?????I'm so damn happy because he's going to get his degree today. Yesterday was his photography session with his friends. I was there too. The photographers ( Am and Yus) need help too, right? I'm not that professional, but still I am so proud of myself as someone at least trust me to use the camera and be their assistance. Thanks to Mr. Amir. Wee~

So right now I'm waiting for him and I just can't wait to be at his convo. But I'm scared too. Erm...not scared actually. NERVOUS!!! Yes, that is better..nervous! Ask me why?? Because I have to meet his dad!! Last night I went to his house to shoot some pics but unfortunately his dad got some work to do. Then that's why I didn't meet his dad. Only his mama and adik-adik. Damn nervous!!!!

Ok then. Got some work to do. I'll upload photos later. By the way, my skin getting dark again because of yesterday's photo session from 10.30 a.m. to 5.oo p.m. Could you imagine that? Till then.

Privacy

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Eid Mubarak

Assalamualaikum semua. Firstly I would like to wish all of my readers Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir & Batin. Ampunkan salah dan silap jika saya pernah terkasar atau terkutuk sama ada secara sengaja atau tidak. Hari ni 1 Syawal and I haven't take my shower yet. Saya sedang sibuk menggosok baju dan mengemas rumah. Huu. Beginilah keadaan saya setiap kali Syawal. I will be the last person yang mandi dan get ready for raya.

This raya, all of my family member balik. Semua,ok? Selalunya ada je kakak or abang saya yang dah kahwin tak balik sebab beraya di rumah mertua. But this time semua balik. So it's quite a hectic actually. Sangat ramai dan rumah telah dipenuhi dengan kanak-kanak yang sangat riang ria.

Oh ya! Tahun ni saya dapat 3 kad raya tau. Yay!!Even zaman dah berubah dan semakin moden, tapi ada juga insan yang sudi bagi saya kad raya. 2 daripada kad tersebut anak murid saya yang bagi. Hand-made, tahu? Thanks everyone.

Ini ialah kad raya dari anak murid saya yang Tahun 5

Okaylah, tak boleh lama-lama sebab banyak lagi kerja yang perlu diselesaikan. Again, I wish all of you a very blissful hari raya. Maaf zahir & batin.

Dilemma

Sayang dan keinginan untuk memiliki ialah dua benda yang berbeza. Aik?Jiwangnya saya!! Have you ever been in a state di mana kamu rasa kamu macam sangat keliru dengan perasaan kamu? Pernah tak kamu mengalami situasi di mana orang yang kamu nanti, orang yang kamu harap, orang yang you love most buat kamu rasa kamu tidak exist dalam hidup dia? Dia semacam ada dunia dia sendiri tanpa peduli dengan perasaan kamu yang menunggu dia seharian seperti orang yang bodoh? Pernah tak kamu rasa kamu dah give up bila kamu dah berusaha dan buat everything tapi kamu masih di tahap yang sama? Pernahkah kamu pernah? Haih~

Kenapa ya when we started to love someone, and gave that someone everything, your heart and your soul, that someone started to leave you slowly and slowy? Kenapa ya bila kita dah sangat sayangkan orang tu dan dah tak boleh ada pengganti lagi, then suddenly ada orang yang lain muncul yang treat kita lebih baik, tahu mengambil hati kita and will never stop tackling until he gets what he wants? Kenapa ya? I know that my heart won't open to other guy except him tapi bak kata orang belakang pisau kalau dah hari-hari asah, akan tajam juga at the end. *betul ke pepatah aku ni?*

Sekarang dah macam confused. Perlukah tunggu kat someone yang semacam tak bersungguh-sungguh sebab terlalu ego nak show me his love atau perlukah saya beri peluang kepada orang yang tak putus asa try to win my heart no matter what? Tapi masalahnya sekarang is saya mungkin tak mampu nak buat macam tu sebab once he came into my life, I'd placed him in a special space in my heart, locked it and saya dah buang kunci tu jauh-jauh and kunci tu saya dah tak jumpa dah. Ataupun saya just biar je? biar masa yang tentukan everything. Seriously, I'm not good in making decision. Sometimes I feel like I hate life. You know why? Because life is about making decision. Till then. Assalamualaikum.

♥ Just For You ♥

Firstly, I'm sorry if this entry will be sort of like jiwang a little bit. It's just that when it comes to 14th September, I will be like in love mode. I keep thinking of him. I wish I could be there right by his side and wishing him a very blissful birthday. *kan best if we were married. Then I could give him a sweet kiss on his cheeks. Perhaps on his lips.wee~* My dear Mr. Z, to be truth there's someone trying so hard to win my heart right now. But don't worry my dear. You will always have my heart. Always, now and forever.
For me, love can be so kind even sometimes it can be full of sorrow. However, everytime when he lets me down, I can heal my broken heart myself because love is soft and it can grow. And because love gives me strength. So what? Hearts can never be practical unless they are made unbreakable, right? But there are times when I feel so lonely. Those time when love can make me feel so weak. But hey!! Love will never give up!! With this love, I put my heart on the line with no regrets. I trust in love because love can make me fall. No matter how bad he treats me, loving him will not be a mistake at all. I will have our memories that will have touched my heart. And that's what makes loving you so worth whiled.

Happy birthday baby. I will always love you..Now, forever and always. Please pray for our happiness. Till then.

WC?

I woke up this morning with the feeling of laziness. *like always,duh!!* Come on, it's Saturday! You know what it means? It's weekend!!And today, we are planning to have a Raya shopping at Pasar Payang. I think it's okay if I spent few hundreds for raya,kan? Raya pun bukannya selalu. Setahun sekali je.

Okay, let's get back to the topic. WC? Well....It has no link to toilet or washroom or whatever which is connected to that terms,actually. It's about weight crisis. Yes, my weight crisis. My current weight now is below 40 kg. *damn* Remember that I am so into ED (eating disorder) before? Don't worry, I'm now no longer have any relationship with ED. But now I'm struggling to increase my weight a little bit. Seriously, I really want to increase my weight to 45 kg, which is a long way to go. But the problem is I'm too particular on the meals that I'd taken. I'm still afraid of being fat and everytime I look at my picture, it looks like I'm sort of like fat. Could you belive that I'm fat?

Okay, really need your help in helping me get rid of this crisis. I really really want to reach an ideal weight with my height, which is at least 45 kg. HELP ME.

This is it.

Assalamualaikum and greetings to everyone. Actually I had plenty of entries in my draft inbox but then I just don't have time to finish it. I'd been busy searching for a flexible time flight ticket from KL to Terengganu this coming 19th October, which unfortunately I'd found none. The last flight from KL to Terengganu is at 8.00 p.m. I'm not sure that I could make it to the airport because that day is his convo and he's not in the morning slot. Sigh~
Okay, let's forget about that for a while. I'm now sort of in a steady state. Why? I just got my salary as a pre-service teacher. Yay! Now I'd already have my steady savings, I can settle all my debts and I can apply for a car loan. I'm not sure about the house loan,but I'm not going to apply for it now. I'm waiting for the next year. Better not to buy a car now as I want to buy a Caldina or a Jazz. Or maybe just a Vios or a City. So I have to wait for next year. Or maybe after posting then I can buy an Alphard for me.. Wee~ I just love working in government sector!! And the most important thing is I just love being a Malaysian. I love Malaysia!! *wee~*
Oh yes. Yesterday I went out with my housemates. We went to Pizza Hut and I had a great dinner: A bowl of soup, a bowl of fresh garden salad, one slice of royal masala, a slice of hawaiian chicken and 2 glasses of warm water. It was so nice and I was so damn full! *smile...smile* After having such a nice dinner, I went to Guardian to buy my supplements. And I bought a bottle of Himalaya's Dandruff shampoo with the hope to remove all the unwanted "white things" on my scalp. *Please go away, dandruff...I'm begging you.Huu~*

Mulut saya yang penuh dengan salad. Sedapnye!!

By the way, Giant was congested with people last night, tahukah?Huu..Aidilfitri is just around the corner. And this year brings so much meanings for me. I paid zakat by myself. This is the first time I paid on my own and now I really feel that I'm no longer being my mak-and-abah's burden anymore. And may this Aidilfitri is blessed and remembered forever. This is it. Till then.

Jalan-jalan Cari Makan

Assalamualaikum. Today me and my housemates went out for berbuka puasa. Our destination: Noodle Station. It's like heaven because there're so many items on the menu card*sort of like rambang mata actually* and got ice-blended!!!Yay!! Sangat lama tidak minum coffee or chocolate ice-blended *owh..sangat merindui starbucks dan coffebean*
Okaylah let's see me and my lovely kakak-kakak.

Me and Kak Piah

My housemates (Plus Ida the photographer)

My meal..not so tempting actually..

Dah-dah. Mahu menyiapkan projek Pengurusan Sumber dan lesson plans yang menimbun tu. Till then.

(-_-)

To my dear Mr. Z,

I love that you get cold when it is 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. Miss you so much. Couldn't stop thinking of you. You..and it's only you. Good night my love. Love you always, now and forever.