A Place Called Home

I reached home last two days and still, I'm tired of traveling and unpacking. But somehow, I'm happy as I can lay on my own bed and watching FIFA. Yay!

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I miss them. I miss those memories with Kak Piah, Ida and Rachel. Moments of struggling to win the battle, struggling to get rid from those bitchy women trying to pretend they were nice and struggling to be patience. I cried when we were hugging each other and when those "Goodbye" words were coming out from our mouth. Guys, I'm going to miss you. Hope you too.

And I miss Terengganu. I miss that sandy beaches. I miss my house. I miss everything.

Me, Ida, Kak Piah and Rachel..


Friends forever..

Hugs and Kisses,

Wishlist

Saya masih lagi sukar nak bernafas. Actually kena pergi hospital untuk X-ray paru-paru...tapi masa sangat pack sekarang ni. Kena tunggu balik Melaka. Sabar. Bertahan.

Kamu semua perasan tak lagi sepuluh hari before my brithday.?Rasanya sangat sesuailah bukan untuk saya expose wishlist saya.

What I want for my birthday is a good health. Yang paling penting dapat bernafas dengan baik. Sebab I'm planning nak pergi Penang. Yes. I want to go there. Have a wonderful birthday there before I will be posted this July. Mungkin ini ialah kali terakhir saya menyambut birthday saya di Semenanjung. Doakan saya cepat sembuh.

Erm..lain-lain ialah...saya nak seekor ikan. Wishlist ni masih tak termakbul since my last birthday. Tapi sebab nak posting dah maybe I'll get a fish once I get there. Lagi...erm...tu je kot. Oh ya. Saya nak happiness. Siapa boleh bagi saya hadiah berupa happiness? Sila angkat tangan.


Hugs and kisses,

I'm sorry...

About my condition....still no progress.
I'll update soon.
Just pray for me to get well soon.

Monolog

First kidney. Now lung. Then what? Liver? Heart? Brain?



Setiap hari ku memohon
Agar kau sentiasa
Memberiku ketenangan dalam hati kekuatan
Menempuhi segala dugaan yang mencabar ini,
Pasti punya ertinya..

Kau beriku harapan,
Menjawab segala persoalan,
Hadapi semua dengan tenang,
Dengan merasa kesyukuran,
Ku doa Kau selalu,
Mengawasi gerak-geriku,
Berkatilah...ku perlu rahmat dari-Mu...

Oh Tuhan terangkan hati dalam sanubariku,
Untuk menempuhi segala hidup penuh cabaran ini
Oh Tuhan ku berserah segalanya kepadamu
Agar jiwaku tenang dengan bimbingan Mu selalu..

Adakala ku merasa hidup ini seperti kaca
Jikalau tidak bersabar, Hancur berderailah akhirnya
Tabahkanlah hatiku,
Melalui semua itu..Ooh..Kuatkanlah..
Cekalkanlah diriku.

Curahkanlah Nikmat Mu pada hidupku.........

Hugs and Kisses,

Welcome back

I went to see a doctor yesterday. He said my lung is swollen. I thought that I just had a normal asthma attack. But it was not.

Right after that, I walked away from the clinic. I stopped at a salon, went inside and I could see my other friends were doing their hair. I'm not going to cut down my pretty wavy hair. I'm dying to have long hair. But everyone was enjoying themselves when the hairdresser get their hair done. Then I asked the hairdresser to make me a fringe.

I'm happy. Now I've got my fringe back.

Do I look like I'm 24?

I'm still having difficulties in breathing. But still, I'm smiling. Pray for my health.


Hugs and Kisses,

My Weekend

Hello lovelies! How was your weekend? Mine was superb and marvelous!
My weekend started with my "singing practice" with my housemate. We spent 2 hours there.
I just love singing!

The next day, we went to the beach. Thought of playing kite but it was already late. I was captivated by the scenery but unfortunately, it has been polluted with those tractors and bulldozers. Just want to share with you some of the photos.

Thanks Mr. Self-timer=)


Yet, another product from Mr. Self-timer=)











Album: Memoirs-Part 1
Photographer: The author

Hurm...what do you think?

Hugs and kisses,

Life goes on.

Woke up this morning feeling like a dead fish. I glanced at my cell phone. Nah...no SMS or any missed call. I've been going through the same situation since the last three days. Come on..stop laughing at me. Life goes on, by the way. I touched my forehead and I could feel that my body's temperature was not at normal range. A fever, again. But not so severe. Maybe it's due to the toothache that I had or maybe because of that pain.

I struggled myself to get up as Subuh was about to finish. Then I prayed, with the hope that there will be a miracle for me.

Thought to go back to bed right after that but I can't. So I browsed through my cell phone. Those photos brought me back memories. Then I started to think. Think, think and think. Then I discovered something.

For all this while I always thought that making decision was on the top of my list. But now I'm wrong. Forgetting is the most difficult thing to do in life. It really really takes some times- maybe a week, a month or even years. It is not as easy as making decision.

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My house is turning to hell right now. So many things happened within a week. I admit that I'm stressed. Therefore I'm going to karaoke today- yes, with my toothache. It's the best way to let out everything so that I won't be suffocated anymore. Hopefully.

No matter what happened, I have to move on. My life won't stop just because of these mischievous thingy. When I analyzed back, there is only one thing that can make me feel stronger again. And that one thing is smile. Keep on smiling as I know the sun will always there to shine for me. Well of course except for rainy days. =)

All you need is a smile.

p/s: I miss my parents so much.

Hugs and Kisses,

Wishlist

I'm now trying to create my Wishlist for my birthday. But I couldn't think of any specific things to be put in that list. I'll post it later....when it's complete.

I'm now struggling with Kursus Induksi after finished the Kursus Pedalaman. I'll finish everything by 19th of June. And maybe will be back on 20th. Maybe. I mean hope so.

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Guys, how many of you agree that I should activate my Facebook account, ignoring that bitch? Raise your hand, please.


Hugs and kisses,

Syukur

I'd finished my SPP interview. Syukur yang teramat syukur. I don't know how the result will be. I'd tried my best to speak even though my cheek swollen like a golf ball, again.Hopefully I'll pass it.

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I can feel that pain growing every each day. It's painful. Yet, I'm grateful that I still can talk, laugh, cry, eat, sleep, updating blog, so on and so forth. I still have the chance to hear the birds singing, to look at the beautiful blue sky, to have a chat with my parents and my beloved sis. Thank God, I'm still alive.

I'm grateful for what I've got. Syukur, Alhamdulillah.

Hugs and Kisses,

Hurt

How would you feel when suddenly, from out of nowhere, a bitch send you a message saying:

"I think I'd fall for your guy. You know what, he gave me a positive feedback. Pity u"

I told her that I don't believe such nonsense. Because you know why? I trust my boyfriend. Then she sent me all the messages between she and my bf. Plus, their conversation on YM. I was speechless. It was miserable. I thought he will appreciate my trust, but no, he didn't.

Oh, yes. Sorry guys. I'd deactivated my FB account. Don't worry, when everything is settle, and that bitch stops messing my life, I'll activate my account back. That's a promise.

What hurt me more is when I ask him about her.

Me: B, Alia Najwa tu ur friend ke?

Him: Eyh, tak la. Die skola laen. Tp mmg my child hood friend.

Then I asked that girl and she said:

Me: Who are you? His child hood friend? How did you know him?

Bitch: Nope. Not his child hood friend. I knew him through FB via one of my friends. He looks just like my ex.

Shit. He lied. Okay. Still, I tried to calm myself. When I told him about that, he tried so hard to cover it up. My heart broke into pieces.

After what he did, I think I'm ready to let him go. Don't worry. I won't do something stupid. Promise.

For that girl, I know you are such a pretty girl. Some more, a F.A. You should be grateful for the gift. Cantik itu kurniaan Allah, bukanlah tuah. Hargai and don't misuse it. Beauty won't last forever,dear.

And for you, I tried so hard to please you and to make you happy. Even you hurt me a lot, I didn't blame you. This isn't the first time people keep on messing with our relationship. It isn't easy for you and me to maintain our relationship. Suddenly because of her, you seems like confused. It's okay. If she can make you smile, then go. I love you and I just want you to be happy. Just don't erase me in your memory. I will always love you.

Saya terfikir akan sesuatu. Mungkin ada hikmahnya saya kena ke pedalaman kerana Allah itu Maha Mengetahui. Kan?

As my fingers lingering on the keyboard, typing this entry, I cried.

Hugs and Kisses,