I'm thankful

Goodbye July, Hello August. It seems like this is my first entry for this month. How are you guys? I feel so great and I hope you too. Well...I haven't post any entry for 2 days. Sorry sunshines..I had no time as I was spending my weekends with my friends and ehem..him. =) Hip..hip..hooray!!!!

Oh yes, I went to my ex-schoolmate's wedding reception. It was like a reunion!! So far I've only one pic to be shared. *Picture courtesy to him. Dear, I cilok your photo* I will share the photos later.

Try find me..=)

Anyways I have 2 great super great news to be shared with you. But I really don't have time right now. I'm tired of travelling from KL to Seremban. Will write about it later, okay? I promise.


Alhamdulillah. I'm thankful for "that". Alhamdulillah again and again and again and forever again.


Hugs and kisses,

Well...Maybe it's just a coincidence..

I have nothing to do tonight..jadi Cikmai pun berjalan-jalan di alam maya ni mencari personaliti berdasarkan bulan kelahiran mengikut kajian Dr. Hj. fadzilah Kamsah. Okay ini ialah antara ciri-ciri personaliti bagi mereka yang lahir pada bulan June. Cikmai pun termasuklah dalam golongan ni.

Berfikiran jauh dan berwawasan
Mudah ditawan kerana sikap baik
Berperangai yg lemah lembut
Mudah berubah sikap ,perangai idea atau mood
Idea yg terlalu banyak dikepala
Bersikap sensitive
Otaknya aktif (sentiasa berfikir)
Suka melakukan sesuatu dengan segera
Bersikap suka menangguh-nangguh
Bersikap terlalu memilih dan mahukan yg terbaik
Cepat marah dan mudah sejuk
Suka bercakap dan berdebat
Suka buat lawak dan bergurau
Otaknya cerdas berangan-angan (so like me!)
Mudah berkawan dan pandai berkawan
Orangnya sangat tertib
Pandai mempamerkan sikap
Mudah kecil hati
Mudah kena selsema
Suka berkemas
Cepat rasa bosan
Sikap terlalu memilih dan cerewet
Kurang mempamirkan perasaan
Lambat nak sembuh bila terluka hati
Suka pada barang yg berjenama(wowzahhhhh!!so true!!!)
Mudah menjadi eksekutif (what??I'm a teacher..not an executive)
Kedegilan yang tak terkawal (yes, I am!)
Sesiapa yang memuji saya adalah musuh saya,
tetapi sesiapa yang menegur saya adalah kawan saya

Well...maybe it's just a coincidence..

Hugs and kisses,

Beautiful?? I'm not!!

Beauty????? Some say it lies in the eyes of the beholder. Some say it's genetic. You know...it's in the blood. Some might say..beauty own by the rich people as they've got a lot of money. Which mean they are really in the circle of high maintenance freaks. A thousand bucks cream won't be a burden.

Unfortunately, I'm not one of a kind.

I'm not beautiful. I do all kinds of things to make myself look beautiful. I adore beautiful ladies. I'm dying to look beautiful..flawless skin, no pimples, no rashes, nothing.

Sometimes I feel like I don't have the confidence to meet other people. Whenever I shared this problem with my boyfriend, his answer would be "It's not important to me. Inner beauty worth than everything. To me, you are beautiful". And it makes me came to a silent pause.

The concept of beauty has been painfully distorted nowadays. Everyone wants to look beautiful (well of course, including me) but one thing that people forget is their inner beauty. If you're not beautiful from inside, then no matter what you do, you can't look beautiful from the outside.

Just be happy. If you're happy from the inside, then it can be clearly seen on your face. You don't have to bring your fake smile as inner beauty is what reflects outside. So I should realize now that beauty is not everything..It just something that can be acquired. After all, it won't last forever. The inner beauty will remain for long..it's a pure heart that will remain forever the same.

Remember...if you have a good heart, you will be the most prettiest thing ever on this earth. Then you will realize the true meaning of beauty. Keep on smiling everyone..but not a fake smile, please??

Hugs and kisses,

Didn't I?

Years ago, someone, a stranger blogger made a complain about the way I pose in every photos taken. He was wondering why, every time I smile, I didn't show off my teeth. He said there must be something wrong with my teeth, cavities, maybe. Okay, just let me explain. There's nothing wrong with my teeth. I know they're not that perfect..but hey, at least I do have teeth. You really want to see my teeth???????

That's me, showing off my teeth.

See..there's nothing wrong with my teeth. It just that I think I do look better to not showing off my teeth when I smile, DIDN'T I?

What do you think?

Hugs and kisses,

All cried out

I always think that I'm better now, but apparently I'm not. I still cry my hell out almost every night before I sleep. It must have been the hormones, what else to be blamed of?

Apparently, these hormones have successfully make me so emotionally intense. I keep on blaming myself for being so inconsiderate before. How stupid I was. As my tears running down on my cheek, my brain starts to wreck and flashback comes without being invited.

Please..define sacrifice. How many times your love one voluntarily relinquished something valued to you? If you asked me, actually the answer will be infinity. I just couldn't count them. But I didn't realize it before. I keep on nagging again and again and sometimes I was being an idiot narcissist partner. I admit that. But people change and so do I. I'm moving on now..towards the bright side.

But hey, believe it or not, crying all out before sleep gets me better and better every each day. I'm now able to see understand what sacrifice is all about. I know...you might think it's just so cliche. You just don't get how I feel, what I have in my heart right now.

He is the man that I've been waiting for. The man that can change me to think, to act, to feel and to love like an adult. Understand and trust each other will be the most important elements in every long distance relationship.

But why do I have to cry? Because I'm happy, I'm grateful to have him as my tears, my joy, my happiness, my laughter, my pain- my everything. Thank you tears as you make me better and better every each day. That's what I mean by renewing myself each day again and again.

P/S: Happy 53rd month anniversary my dear. I love you even more.


Good night everyone.

Hugs and kisses,

Just dreaming

I went to Paris yesterday. My boyfriend and I spent our romantic picnic, viewing the Eiffel Tower. We could hear the birds singing a sweet lullaby..we saw a few couples laughing, spending their most memorable moments together, and so do us. He held me tightly and I kissed him softly. Then I could hear he whispered to my ears those three words..Again, I fell for him..again and again and again..and forever again....STOP! Muahahahahahahahaha..Just dreaming meh! Manela sempat nak pergi sampai ke Paris. Gile ke ape??? Jauh tuh..En. fulus pun nak tak nak je ade dalam purse nih.. Besides, mane boleh kissing kissing nih..Belum kahwin ma....Sigh~

By the way, I'm still waiting for 2nd of August. The fact is I'm getting bored for every single minutes that I spent during that waiting period. Tell me what should I do. Just tell me. Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell meeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry guys. Today was just another emotional day for me. Can't wait for tomorrow, hoping for a better day. Hey, I'm renewing myself each day, get it? Smile!!=)

Hugs and kisses,

Just Checking

Hello!Hello! Saje je Cikmai nak check korang semua. Dah sehari tak update. I'm afraid that you all gonna miss me. Rindu tak? Rindu tak? Cakapla rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.............ngee~

Well, I really don't have time to update anything now. Told you, I was just checking. Caring tak Cikmai?Caring kan?kan?kan?=)


Hugs and kisses,

Kuih...kuih....

Holla! Happy Saturday everyone! Kuih-kuih........Eh, Cikmai bukan nak menjual kuih la...Hari ini tetibe teruja nak menjamu selera macam harimau ni dengan kuih. Fikir punya fikir, nak buat kuih tradisional la..I'm bored of kuih mat saleh,you know?? Kuangkuangkuang...So, Cikmai menguli la Buah Melaka atau nama lain Onde-onde. Dah makan pun...Kenyang yang teramat...Sampai sekarang rasa tak lapar lagi. Yang penting, mak saya suka!!!!!

Erm...anda tahu kan onde-onde? Impossible tak tahu. Mestilah tahu, bukan? Kata 1 Malaysia.. Actually kuih ni simple je. Takla complicated like chesse cake. That's why I love kueh Melayu so much! Bahan-bahan pun mudah - air pandan ( Cikmai blend daun pandan jadi mcm juice gitu), tepung pulut, dan sedikit kapur (sikit je tau..tak sampai pun setengah sudu teh) and gula Melaka sebagai inti. By the way, bukan kapur kasut or kapur yang cikgu buat tulis kat papan hitam tu. Kapur barus pun bukan. Kapur sireh tu ye......

Aik? Kenapa Cikmai added kapur? Tula rahsia adunan jadi lembut. Dan lagi satu, Cikmai tak suka pakai pewarna hijau. Biarkan warna dia natural from pandan. Hello!! Orang dulu-dulu time zaman Hang Tuah ade ke pewarna hijau???!!!! Oh, I nearly forgot..Dan kelapa parut. Kelapa ni pun pilih yang putih berseri macam iklan gigi tu..Pastu gaulkan dengan garam supaya kelapa tak basi.

Okaylah tak nak bebel panjang. Nak fikir esok nak buat ape pulak. Oh ya, silalah ambil sebiji onde-onde Cikmai. Kuang..kuang..kuang...

Jemput makan. Hehe.

HUgs and kisses,

Yay!!

Already found my lucky # 10,000!!! Take a look at this:

Wah2...dari Seremban..Siapa ya? Ngeee~

Okaylah..mata pun dah mengantuk..Nak tidur dulu..Good night all.

Hugs and kisses,

10,000!

Holla!!! Ishk..tajuk macam musykil je..Apekah?? 10,000 promises? Like a song from BSB? Okay..just straight to the point. Take a look at my visitors. I'm looking forward..who will be the Lucky #10,000n visitor?? Hmm....dup dap..dup dap..berdebar-debar rasanya!!!!!!! Weee~ Wait and see.

Hugs and kisses,