1368 Days

Hari ini genap 1368 hari Akma bersama Mr. Boify. Sepanjang 1368 hari, banyak yang telah Akma pelajari, terutamanya erti pengorbanan. Akma akui Akma ni seorang yang keras kepala. But when it comes to Mr. Boify, Akma akan jadi seorang yang soft dan tidak langsung memikirkan perasaan sendiri. Memang Akma akui, hubungan kali ni memang banyak dugaan dan cabaran. *adakah ianya sebab I took my friend's boyfriend?I just don't know* Tapi that's what we called a relationship, isn't it?Pernah juga terasa give up dan mahu memberi peluang kepada orang lain, tapi tak tahu kenapa ianya tak menjadi. I just couldn't do that. It's so difficult to forget him. Walaupun hati sakit, even I have to cry on my own, just let it be...hoping that someday that things are going to be just fine. Hari tak selalunya cerah, bukan?Just look at the bright side and be as optomistic as I could.

Sudah 1368 hari..........

Dear boify, Happy 45th month Anniversary. I know that you don't even remember this day cause I'd been waiting for your sms but I got none. Setiap bulan pun boify lupa. I'm the one who always remind you about our anni. *susah sangat ke nak ingat 28 hb?*1368 days being with you make my life almost complete. Thanks for letting me to love you with all my heart and soul. I want you to know that even though you always make me feel lonely, even you always let my tears running down on my cheek, even you always make me feel like I'm the one that so into you, even you always make me think that I'm not good enough for you and even you always make me feel unappreciated.....I will always love you. In fact, I love you more and more each day. I don't mind if I have to pretend that I am smiling while inside, I'm crying like hell. Thanks for making me happy..well almost happy actually..Hope that you feel the same way too. And I hope that maybe someday the sky will be coloured with our love.

Assalamualaikum.

H o m e

Today is my 5th day at home. I love my home.. SO MUCH!!...even I have a lots of things to do..but I enjoy it! When I'm at home, I could feel the overwhelming sense of relief. Relief from abundance of assignments and activities. Relief because I'm not at Terengganu anymore *at least for a month*. well..........There's no other place like home.
By the way, I'm now on my way finishing "The Chalet Girl". It's a very nice love story written by Kate Lace. But.....I have no time to finish it. The moment I woke up, I have to prepare the breakfast and tidy up everything...have to take care of my sis, my nieces and nephews..have to cook...have to clean and wash the toilet..have to do this and do that..Everything is on me because my mom is not feeling well. I only have time after 12 midnight. Time which I called "Moment of Privacy". Time when my boify calls me. Time to do the nails and eyebrows. Time to read. I love reading. I really miss reading. And I really miss him too. wee~
Yup! I miss him. A LOT!! Having a very short conversation with him almost every night is not enough. Sometimes I feel like it's hurt when you fall in love. All you could think of is him. Him, him and him. I could say that falling in love can be a slippery slope. Once you fall, it's hard for you to get up. You will be mesmerized and sometimes you could feel the pain in your chest. Your heart leap whenever you see his face or you hear his voice. Your world turns upside down. Sometimes you couldn't be rational as you always want to follow your heart. Hmmm....boify, I miss you dear..really miss you.
Hmm...have something to do. Till then. Assalamualaikum.

Yay!!!

I'm now at KL Sentral. Yay!!!!! My sis just called me asking me to come back home early coz we are going to go..........................................Shoppping!!! Wanna drop by at Starbucks..I really miss Java Chips. Ok then...have to catch up my train. Till then. Assalamualaikum.

*Miss my boify and my mates!!*

7 s i g n s

Few days ago I read an article about 7 signs that he's serious about you. *don't know why recently I love to do some light reading on articles and books..it's the nature of a teacher maybe...huuu* Well...this article's quite interesting for me as it's related with my love life. I can't deny that the doubt-and-worry feeling keep on forcing me to be pessimistic and eventually.....arguments created! I don't want to go to any doctor love to have a therapy session..so what I can do is..I do some light reading about relationship *long distance relationship* on my own whenever I have free time. And tada!!!!found this article. Before this I always think that he's not serious with our relationship. Yela...he never showed that he wanted to be serious. He seems like don't even care how I feel. *I guess you guys know better about this, isn't it?*But I was wrong..I was totaly wrong.he's not like that. Not showing off your feeling to your love one doesn't mean that you don't love him/her, right?
So...let's just go through to this articles. These are the 7 signs of a guy when he's serious about you.

1. He calls or texts you at the right time.
2. He wants to see you...a lot!!!
3. You pass the distance test. * Which I passed it!!!Yay!!*
4. You stack up against the things he loves to do.
5. He finds a way to make for you.
6. You sees his other side
7. You have down time together.

Well...does your boyfriend showing those signs? If you ask me..the answer is..YES!!!!
Till then~

Impian

First of all, sorry for keeping this entry too long in my draft box. I was busy searching for the pictures to be uploaded in this entry..*which sort of like disappointing me, actually*
Well....semua orang pun ada impian masing-masing. Impian nak jadi kaya, nak buka restoran sendiri, nak kahwin kat bulan, nak kahwin dengan putera raja dan banyak lagi. I have my own too. Sekarang ni Akma tengah merancang perkahwinan impian beliau. Yup..I know that this thing is too early but we need a proper plan for our future, isn't it?
Let see how my dream wedding looks like..Okay..Akma mahukan majlis perkahwinan bertemakan classic and unique. Baju saya? Saya nak pakai baju kurung moden. Material? Of course la songket putih. Penat mencari songket putih di Pasar Payang which I couldn't find any. Tak pe..Banyak lagi masa..*okay...akan dipertimbangkan material lain kalau tak dapat cari songket putih*Then Akma akan sanggul rambut and selit sekuntum bunga putih di celah my ear.. wah...sungguh klasik! Okay, baju saya akan lebih kurang macam ni:

Cantik bukan?

Okay move to warna tema. Warna tema yang saya impikan ialah putih dan merah. Pelamin saya? Erm.....mestilah nak yang unik dan klasik yet simple. Erm puas dah cari contoh gambar di internet. Well lebih kurang macam ni la:

Simple but nice,kan?

Kalau hantaran pula, saya nak yang simple sahaja. Saya tak nak lah sampai berbelas-belas dulang. Saya cuma nak tujuh dulang sahaja. Al-quran, telekung dan sejadah, sirih junjung, chocolate, kasut, handbag dan perfume. Theme colour of course putih dan merah, letak dalam bekas yang sangat tradisional dan klasik. Erm..saya tak dapat cari gambar la... Tapi everything dah ada dah dalam kepala saya. Now...just nak kumpul duit to make my dream comes true. And just wait and see who's going to be the groom. Till then.
Assalamualaikum.

Friday the 13th!

I looked at the calender on my lappy just now and I realized that today is Friday. It's Friday the 13th, guys! Well, Friday the 13th occurs when the thirteenth day of a month falls on Friday, which superstition holds to be a day of good or bad luck. In the Gregorian calender, this day occurs at least once, but most three times in a year. Well as a Muslim, I don't believe in this kind of superstitious at all. I just love to do research, why everyone's waiting for this date. However, certain people do believe in this and in fact, they are phobia to Friday the 13th. Those who are phobia to Friday the 13th are called paraskevidekatriaphobia.
I do some light reading about this and I found out that there were stories believed by the folklorist happened exactly on this date. But most of the incidents happened were not related to Islam. Well to make it short, we don't have to believe in such supersitious. What we should believe is that, whatever happened in our life, our good and bad luck, came from Allah. It's Him, the all mighty. Whatever happened to us, had been written by Him and we don't have the power to change it. All we could do is pray and be a good person. Till then.

Already watched this movie with my boify long ago..

It's all started with letter 'T'

When I was little, I never thought that I would become a teacher someday. Now, here I am, waiting to graduate as a teacher and ready to give my service with all my heart and soul. I never ashamed of becoming a teacher, a primary school teacher by the way. In fact, I'm proud of myself. Without teacher, there would be no engineer, lecturer, lawyer or even the prime minister. Teacher taught them to read, to write, to count and to learn the value of life.
However, it is not easy for me, I bet to all my fellows also, to become a good teacher. Teachers have the very important responsibility of shaping the lives of young, impressionable children. With this responsibility comes great pride and joy. Therefore I should strive for what can be considered to be a "good teacher." A good teacher can be defined as someone who always pushes students to want to do their best while at the same time trying to make learning interesting as well as creative. A positive or negative influence from a teacher early on in life can have a great effect on the life of a child.
Therefore, as a primary or some people called it elementary school teacher, I must be creative with my teaching style. Not every child learns the same way, nor are they interested in the same things. I can not deny that I'm nervous and worry whether I could achieve my dream successfully or not. I have to be strong and accept whatever consequences in future. My beloved parents, my boify, my friends and everyone...Please do pray for my success. Pray that I will become a good teacher someday. It's a big responsibility for me to shape our country's future leader. God bless. Till then. Assalamualaikum.

*My sis just gave birth yesterday. Can't wait to see my new nephew*

5 Minutes

Akma cuma ada 5 minit sahaja untuk mengupdate blog. Oh ya, Akma sudah pun ready untuk ke tournament bowling. Aik? Even in a hectic teacher's life pun masih sempat nak bersuka-ria? Oh...tidak sama sekali. Ini ialah salah satu projek Gerko kami. Jadi...nak tak nak kena lah take part jugak. Untuk pengetahuan semua, Akma tidak pernah main bowling, tahukah? Ya...Akma tak pernah main bowling. Never. Erm...still wondering how am I suppose to play bowling...hmmmmm..It's okay because this game is just for fun only. Hope that I'll learn something about bowling kejap lagi. Wish me luck, okay? Till then.

Assalamualaikum.

Teringat

Akma sedang teringat zaman-zaman ketika belajar di university dulu. *ceh..semacam sudah lama je tinggalkan UiTM..* Sepanjang di UiTM dulu, saya paling suka tahun kedua pengajian saya. I really miss my sophomore year so much. You know why? Because I love both experimental food and food culture subject. I remember when me and my team struggling to produce dragonfruit marshmellow. And I still can remember our trip to Melaka to complete our assignment on Portugese food and culture. And having a very nice lunch buffet at Mandarin Oriental KL. Guys..I really miss those moments. And I really miss you guys.
The other reason of why I love my sophomore year is.....ehem..sebab masa ni masih lagi berbunga-bunga cinta. Maklumlah baru sahaja berpacaran. Everything was so sweet! Study together kat library. Wah...Rindunya!If only I could turn back time..just for once..Saya nak balik ke university coz I miss my campus life. I miss all of my friends. Till then.

Kami.....

You think?

Few days ago, someone sms me asking me what am I doing at that moment. Then I said "Berblogging la..like always". The next day, that someone asked me. The conversation went like this..

"Apela tulis-tulis blog ni..."
"Kenape pulak?"
"Best ke?"
"Best la..You can share your thoughts, your stories, your feelings and everything. Why?"
"Owh..ye ke?"
"Yela...kite suke la blog"
"Nanti boleh la ajar kite tulis blog, kan?"
"Sure.."

Well....for me..I love blogging. I really do. It's like "Blog is where your heart is". Daa~ So gediks! But yes. You can share everything with everyone through blog. I admit that sometimes it is quite difficult to make your privacy things to be published to public. But for me....it's the matter of freedom. We are free to write whatever we want, isn't it? Sometimes blog ni juga tempat kita nak luahkan rasa tidak puas hati kita about something when there is no one there to listen to us. Kan? Bukankah mata pena tu lebih tajam dari kata-kata? * Well in this case, blog tak pakai pen..we just type the words.*
Anyways, sebenarnya it depends on what you think. Ada orang yang tak suka blog. Ada yang rasa blog ni is just a medium where people want to insult others. Ada yang cakap blog ni tempat nak show off la, tu la...ni la....macam-macam. Semuanya terpulang pada individu dan diri masing-masing. Yela..rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain. Setiap orang ada pandangan tersendiri. So....you guys decide la sendiri then..You think?
Till then~