I ♥ school

I never thought that eventually and unexpectedly I am going to spend the rest of my life (well..I could say) at school. I still remember when I was a kid, I was like counting days to finish school. Why? Because I hate school. School sucks! I have to attend and participate in so many things. Every each day passed by, I kept on thinking of why I should spend most of times at school instead of having fun at home?
But now things are not going to be the same anymore. School is part of my life now. I love school. I love everything about school..From the food (well..at least cheaper than outside's) to the pupils. Well not that everything, actually. But the point is I started to love school more than I do before. Hey, at least I DO love school. What about you?
Only two weeks left. Hurm....hoping that everything will be just fine.
Dear Mr. Sun, please shine down on me.

Le Papillon

This song is so cute! Love it so much!

Nak gelak guling-guling!!

I just discovered something funny! Google sangat pandai membuat translation Malay- English...I tried to translate entry saya yang saya tulis in Malay. It's hilarious! Jom gelak guling-guling!

I wrote:
Dahlah masa saya hantar baju tu dia ada cakap benda yang agak laser la jugak. But I took it as a joke because kau orang tua. Boleh pulak dia mempersendakan kain cotton India saya. Dia tanya saya memang suka kain cotton ke, then I said yes. Yela..kain licin susah..Nak kena iron la...nak kena basuh tangan la....Tapi boleh pulak dia cakap.."Cotton je?Miskin ke?"...Eh..Hello!!!!!Saya beli kain kebaya ni from Indon and kain cotton ni from India, okay????Melaser pulakkan kakak ni. Nasib baik saya ni kategori insan yang penyabar. Sambil tersenyum saya jawab "Biasalah kak...cikgu je..Mana mampu.."

Google translation:
Dahlah time I send him clothes tu no talk things fairly laser la jugak. But I took it as a joke because you parents. Can pulak he derided my Indian cotton cloth. He asked I just love to cotton fabric, then I said yes. Yela .. .. hard smooth cloth iron Nak kena la ... nak kena wash hands la pulak .... But can he talk .. "Cotton je? Poor to Eh ?"... .. Hello! ! I bought a kebaya cloth from Indon ni ni and cotton cloth from India, okay? Melaser pulakkan sister ni. Fortunately I ni categories of human suffering. I answer with a smile "Biasalah kak je cikgu ... .. Where can .."

I wrote:
Terkedu sebentar. Amin!Then we went back and spent time together borak-borak sebab malam tu dah nak kena balik Terengganu. Rasa macam tak nak balik. lagi-lagi when he said: "B, you tak payah la balik." Dang! Terus berkaca mata saya. I wish I could. But I have to work. Anak-anak saya tengah tunggu saya kat sekolah. Sabar ye sayang, cuti sekolah nanti I balik lagi. Tak lama. Khamis ni je. Sabar tau.

Google translation:
Terkedu moment. Amin! Then we went back and spent time together because night chat-chat tu dah nak kena balik Terengganu. Feel like tak nak balik. again when he said: "B, you do not struggle back la." Dang! Continue to look in the mirror my eyes. I wish I could. But I have to work. My children wait for my middle school kat. Ye steadfast love, I leave school later back again. Not long. Thursday ni je. Patient tau.

Hello!!!Makhluk mana la yang buat translation macam ni? Sangat kelakar. Okay ade lagi satu.

I wrote:
Semacam dah tak boleh tahan lagi. Sangat merindui anak-anak sedara. Semua!!Fatihah, Aliah, Iman, Farisya, Danish, Dania, Najwa, Saifullah, Saifuddin, Khadijah, Qistina and Sufi. Ya ampun...Cikma rindu sangat dekat kamu semua. They are all like my friends bila dekat rumah. Melihat telatah masing-masing memang mencuit hati. Dahla kamu semua sangat comel dan adorable, tahu? Bila nak jumpa ni...Cikma takde cuti la sayang. Hopefully kakak,oya,farisya,wawa, iman, bang bok and danish..rajin-rajin pergi sekolah..Nanti teacher marah..Macam mana la Farisya..how's her life at new school?Haih~Semua skali..Cikma rindu sangat nih..Aduh..bila la Cikma dapat balik...

Google translation:
Like dah can not hold more. Very misses children sedara. All! Fatihah, Aliah, Faith, Farisya, Danish, Dania, Nicole, Saifullah, Saifuddin, Khadijah, Qistina and Sufi. My goodness ... Cikma rindu very near you. They are all like my friends when near home. Ones to see their hearts really mencuit. Dahla you all very Cute and adorable, know? When I find ... Cikma ni takde la love holidays. Hopefully sister, oya, farisya, wawa, faith, and Danish bok bang-hard go hard .. .. Nanti school teacher angry .. How Farisya la .. how's life at her new school? Haih ~ All skali .. Cikma rindu very nih .. Oops .. la Cikma be back when ...

That's really really funny! Kalau mat salleh translate, bayangkan apa yang diaorang baca...Kelakar! Jap..nak sambung gelak lagi!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Syukur

Okay..I admit that I took a wrong step. You know...in life, sometimes I need to make mistakes so that I could learn myself as who I am. Sekarang saya rasa sangat bersyukur because I'd actually found someone that really really loves me. Dia sentiasa ada dengan saya selama ni. Even though he did sometimes hurt me, but he loves me. It just me who didn't realize all that.
Last night he told me that he is going to Senai next week for an interview. At first I doubted to let him go. What if he'll get that job? Then he will be going to Johor. Once again, I was just being too paranoid. Oh..come on Akma...grow up!!!! But as long as we love each other, there should be nothing to be worried of. And I'm sick and tired of being paranoid. I don't need it anymore.
He had taught me so much about love. He makes me realized that love is about commitment. Love is about putting someone else before myself. Love is about sacrifice, putting someone else first. Love is selfless. Love is the joy of giving. Love is a feeling that grows over time as it is nourished. So now, I should give him chance to improve himself, to boost his career. He needs me. He needs my support. And so do I. I need him. I need his support too. And we actually need each other.
But don't worry baby. Our memories will always keep me alive. No matter how far we will be apart, one thing will sure keep me alive..It's our MEMORIES. When I think about you, it's our memories that come to my mind. It will trap me in a space of time masa kita menghabiskan masa together. I have no photographers to see but your picture is with me..always. No one knows the depth from which my heart can love you..hanya tuhan saja yang tahu.
Sekarang ni, faithfulness is what we need in order to keep ourselves together tak kira berapa jauh pun kita berada. But now...one thing for sure is..I miss you a lot, dear...

Still remember this moment, honey?

Please pray for our happiness.

Yay!!! Comel!

Saya suka bila saya online. Nak tau kenapa? Sbb... sila tengok gambar di bawah:

Comel kan? I love pastel colours so much. Plus the cupcakes...cute isn't it? That's why la hari-hari nak sentiasa online.Wee~

Have you ever...............................................

had a feeling that something is not going right but at the same time you feel like everything is just fine? I know that I didn't make the right decision. I cannot live even for a second without him. I just can't. And please don't ask me why.

I'm giving up.

Yes. This is not the first time saya kena mengalah dengan kawan-kawan awak. There. I let you go. Pergilah dekat kawan-kawan yang awak boleh jumpa almost every week. Hope kali ni I could really really forget about him. I could erase all the memories that we cherished together..I know that this might take times. But I'll try.

Saya give up. The question is.....am I doing the right thing?

Betul ke?

Hi everyone! Hari ni terasa macam nak bergossip la..Boleh ke? Boleh kan aje...Layan!!!
Well.....Betul ke dalam dunia ni kita kena cari person who loves you more than you love him/her?So hari ni Cikmai nak berkongsi cerita, happened to my friend.
Okay.....Kawan Cikmai ni memang tengah terasa hati dan tengah berfikir-fikir la jugak tentang future dia. This girl memang dah ada someone special. Memang sangat special tau this guy dalam hidup my friend ni. This girl memang sanggup buat apa saja untuk buah hati pengarang jantung dia ni. As far as I can see, their relationship ni sort of like tak balance la. Sebab apa yang I tengok, this girl memang nampak terhegeh-hegeh la dekat laki ni. Even tinggal jauh, tapi sanggup berkorban semata-mata nak jumpa buah hati dia. Yang laki ni nak ajak this girl keluar, jauh sekali..Apatah lagi nak datang jumpa. Kesian kan?
So baru-baru ni kawan saya ni baru dapat tau yang masa mula-mula couple dulu, guy ni still in relationship with his ex. This guy dumped his ex because of my friend. Bila kawan saya ni dapat tahu, dia terasa la. Yela..kawan Cikmai ni pernah cakap, benda yang dia takkan buat dalam dunia ni is stealing a guy from a girl. Lagi-lagi perempuan tu kawan kepada kawan saya ni. Kawan saya ni bukan seorang perampas sebab dia tahu macam mana rasanya kalau benda yang sama happened to her. Kawan saya ni dah rasa dia macam betrayer. Yang kawan saya jadi bertambah sedih, bila she asked his boyfriend about this, jawapan yang dia dapat agak membuatkan hati dia sedikit terguris la. Yela..this girl harapkan yang this guy ni betul-betul fall in love with her macam apa yang this girl rasa towards this guy. Tapi his boyfriend said dia minta maaf...You know why? Sebab dia TERlebih layan kawan saya ni. Masa baru-baru couple dulu dia memang masih lagi ada hubungan dengan his ex. Tapi sebab dia dah TERlebih layan...kawan saya ni pun mati-mati la ingat kan dia dah fell in love with her. And kawan saya ni betul-betul tak tahu yang this guy still in relationship sebabnya this guy ni cakap ex dia dah dumped dia for other guy. Yela...even benda ni dah lama, tapi kawan saya tu sedih la because selama ni dia salah anggap dengan this guy's ex.
Tapi saya cakap kat kawan saya ni....ada baiknya dia dah tahu perkara ni. Better late than never, isn't it? Saya cakap kat dia, ada hikmahnya dia dapat tahu benda ni. Now dia dah tahu kenapa relationship dia sort of like tak balance. Now kawan saya ni dah tahu kenapa dia sorang je terhegeh-hegeh kat this guy.
Sekarang ni pula, ada one guy yang tengah nak try to win my friend's heart. Dia memang sanggup buat apa saja untuk kawan saya ni. But kawan saya ni tak boleh nak fall for this guy. Bukan sebab laki ni tak handsome and tak high educated. Tapi sebab kawan saya ni semacam dah sealed hati dia untuk other guy. I did tell my friend to try to give that guy a chance and try to open her heart for other guy. Tapi tak berjaya. Kawan saya ni sayang sangat la dekat buah hati dia. Keras hati betul.
Sekarang ni kawan saya tu dah mula rasa yang dia nak hidup sorang-sorang sampai tua. In other words, she doesn't want to get married. Dia dah mula rasa tak yakin dengan relationship yang dia ada sekarang ni. And dia dah mula rasa give up. Tapi saya ada nasihatkan dia to go on dengan relation yang dia ada sekarang ni but jangan berharap apa-apa from her guy. Kawan saya ni masih lagi sanggup berkorban apa pun untuk this guy. Boleh pulak dia cakap tak pe la asalkan buah hati dia happy sedangkan dia menangis..Ishk!
Jadi apa pendapat korang? Macam mana nak nasihatkan kawan saya ni? Kesian tau dia selalu sangat makan hati. Cikmai tengok dia sekarang ni dah makin kurus dah tapi boyfriend dia makin berisi. Mana tak kurus, hati tak tenang..So..apa pendapat korang?

Kalau tak pandai...Jangan nak berlagak pandai!!!!!!

Geram!! Marah!!! Nasib baik la you are older than me. Disebabkan rasa hormat dekat orang tua, saya redha aje. Mahunya tak marah. 2 pasang baju saya hantar jahit rosak kedua-duanya. Kalau kain murah tak apalah. I love that kain so much because I'm gonna wear it during my BFF's engagement day nanti. But then kena hantar tailor yang lebih professional, kena jahit balik. Kesian tailor ni sebab kena buka balik jahitan and remake balik.
So dalam dunia ni...kalau kita tak pandai nak buat sesuatu, jangan la nak berlagak macam kita pandai nak buat. Siap cakap pandai jahit baju pengantin la...pandai jahit baju fesyen la..orang nak kahwin pun tempah baju kat akak la..itula...inila...Damn~ You were really good in convincing people. Citttt porah!!!!! Habuk tadak. Dah la ambil masa sebulan nak siapkan, dah tu hasilnya macam buat dalam satu malam aje. You don't have to act like you are a professional if you are just a beginner..or should I say you don't know how to be a tailor.
Dahlah masa saya hantar baju tu dia ada cakap benda yang agak laser la jugak. But I took it as a joke because kau orang tua. Boleh pulak dia mempersendakan kain cotton India saya. Dia tanya saya memang suka kain cotton ke, then I said yes. Yela..kain licin susah..Nak kena iron la...nak kena basuh tangan la....Tapi boleh pulak dia cakap.."Cotton je?Miskin ke?"...Eh..Hello!!!!!Saya beli kain kebaya ni from Indon and kain cotton ni from India, okay????Melaser pulakkan kakak ni. Nasib baik saya ni kategori insan yang penyabar. Sambil tersenyum saya jawab "Biasalah kak...cikgu je..Mana mampu.."
Maka...dengan ini saya bersumpah takkan hantar lagi kain dekat tailor yang bernama Kak Lah. Baiklah hantar dekat tailor I kat Melaka ni. It's worth to spend 100 bucks for a baju kurung yang sangat selesa dan tak perlu diremake.
Pengajarannya jangan percaya dengan kata-kata manis seorang orang tua yang berlagak pandai. Nasib baik kau orang tua. I will never ever trust you, makcik!
Geramnya saya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why is it so hard to find true friends?

Many people are lonely. Even though they meet with other people everyday, but they couldn't find their true friends. Do you ever face the similar experience? I do. I don't know why, recently I realized that it is really hard for me to find true friends. Why?

Finding true friends seems as though it would be a relatively simple task for most of us, after all, we are a very what I called "sociable species". Friends can easily be found through internet, like from friendster, facebook, twitter, or even blogger itself. But why is it so hard to find a friend that will never leave you in any kind of situation? I keep on thinking about this and end up by finding answers which I think could be the reason why.

It is not easy to build a sincere friendship that could last forever and ever. There maybe somewhere in the mix of forming relationships or friendships certain issues will arise and eventually could kill a friendship quickly. It could be dishonesty or maybe jealosy or hundreds other personality traits that are less than admirable. While I tend to gravitate toward those with values similar to my own when socializing, it is hard to determine what is truly inside of a person's heart and mind. I'm not a psychic that has a supernatural powers that could read other's mind. You see.....everyone enjoys presenting themselves well, but that does not necessarily mean that what you see is what you get when it comes to making friends. It can take years to truly come to know another person, and when we do it is very possible it turns out they are someone we really don't want to know.

But sometimes you don't have to take years to get to know other person when there is a give and take situations. When sincerity conquers all. Not only sincerity, the essence of true friendship lies in any number of personal attributes like loyalty, respect, humor, empathy, compassion and honesty, which are simply not present in all people. It is hard to find true friends because it is hard to find true people in general, who are willing to share openly and honestly and expect to receive the same in return.

When I think back, I admit that I miss my life as a student. Why? Because I have a lot of friends to cherish every moments. But.....do they really my true friends? I don't think so. They're maybe just my friends. Once they left college, they also left the happiness, the moments, the friendships. Once they found their life, either they happy or not, they seems like forgetting me. Well..it's not that I don't have true friends. I do. But it just that.................hmmm...it's so complicated for me to explain. Bukankah kawan yang sejati should share every moments together? Not only when we are in trouble. Please ladies....and gentlemen...Don't let the friendships to be influenced by gratification.
Think, think and think. Or is it because of me? Nope. Not me. I keep thinking about you, you, you, and you...Oh...please don't put "Busy" as your surname. It's just a damn typical old grandmother reason. And please..don't let your popularity screw up everything. There's nothing to be proud of. God can take it away from you in just a second.

Okay...sekarang dah tahu siapa kawan saya yang sejati. I do have a lots of friends but only now I realized which one is my true friends. Do I have to make a list here? Better not. Why? Eh...siapa yang makan cili, dialah yang terasa pedas. Isn't it? Sayang...bukan you la. Jangan la perasan pulak. Tet!! Need to sleep. Ngantuks~

Pardon me for the typo error...I'm so damn sleepy..